Irrevocable MemoRy

The way that you make me feel

2009-09-13T19:52:00.003+01:00

When I was young all I felt about you was a star who danced well but with some weird pose, a star who liked to shake his hand and kept shouting 'hoo hoo or yehh hey' while singing. Mayb you are more unique to me from your appearance, from a black to a white. Even b4 I was brought to this world you were already a famous King of pop but when I was 10, your music was still a hit. I do likw your music but not to the extent of a crazy fan, just a feeling that your music is nice and you seem to be unique but not much of admiration.

When I start growing up, the rumous about you and ppl around you never ends though you seem not to be actively involved in your singing career. Your name always appears on the magazines/tabloid alleging you sexually abuse the children, accusing you a paedophile, a person who doesn't respect his own race as he bleached himself white, undergone surgery etc etc. Due to the mass report, I started to be skeptical and leading me to believe that you are weird and bizzard.

2009, you come back to the stage, a place where you belongs to. But I haven't got too much of interest, expensive ticket that I could not afford first of all, Not too much of admiration second of all.

Then the astonishing news of your death just right b4 your concert has shocked the whole world I believe. When I was told about your death I felt bad but not to the extent which would make me feel miserable and think it was a big lost. All I feel was MJ fans must be heartbreaking.

Mayb this is Me or this is human, will only start appreciating after we have lost sth. I started to read some of your news, started to watch some of your concert clips and interviews. The more I learn about you the more I regret not to know you more b4 you have gone. It's not only admire your talent as a musician but also highly respect you being a kind hearted, sincere and polite person. As pointed by my friend how could the press keep attacking a nice person like you.

It's a total and complete shame for us to lose you, but looking at how ppl sometimes may hurt you, mayb it is good for you to R.I.P now and I believe you must be having more laughter now in heaven.

How could I justify and being firm to say that MJ was a nice and kind-hearted person? And how would I know if he has or hasn't sexually abuse the child or any other accusation alleged to him was not true? To be honest I don't know what will be the Real Truth, but it is just the way he makes me feel. An innocent and sincere heart is what he had, as a star, a super super King of pop, he still manage to be humble and polite to ppl around him, the way he speaks was never rude but sincere, he was never reluctant to love especially to his fans, the way he kept saying I Love you to his fans really touched me to the bottom of my heart, playing with the children innocently as if he was also a little kid. I just don't understand why is so wrong about it?

As he himself correctly pointed out, having grown up in front of 100,000 millions of ppl at the age of 5, his life is destined to be different. And yes he is always a contentious yet talented Star- the King of POP. May he will R.I.P

缘

2009-07-24T19:36:00.002+01:00

人与人之间总有一种奇特的缘份。

一些人只与你擦肩而过，不留痕迹。
一些人匆匆地在你身旁略过，留下模糊的印像。
一些人是你人生的顿点，可能只是过客，可能会是启蒙你的人。
一些人突然闯进你的人生，改变你的步伐，改变你的作息，你也同样的互相迁就，突然有一天他离开了，在你的心上刺了一刀，同时也留下彼此的回忆。
有些人惺惺相系，维持一段珍贵的友谊
有些人相逢恨晚，如果早点相遇可能结局又会不一样。
有些人一见钟情，再见倾情。
有些则是细水长流，携手看夕阳。
一些则对你循循善诱，用心培养与教导，不求回报，最高无尚。

一个人的一生亲情，友情与爱情都会在不同的时间留下不同的痕迹。
珍惜身边的人不是只用言语，而要身体力行。
但是勉强当然没有幸福，一切平常心。
缘份来了挡也挡不了，要走时留也留不住。
随遇而安，顺其自然
最后你会知道你真正要的可能不是你握紧拳头要的。

my travelogue- porto&lisbon

2009-06-04T00:23:00.008+01:00

Told myself to write a travelogue each time when I'm back from holidays, but I never did.
Tried to keep maps, metro lines, travel info to help with my travelogue but seems like I never refer back to them then end of chucking them into the bin.

Anyways, time to recall what I have done in Portugal, obviously I can't rmb the name of the monument, statute, street/ building.

First impression of Porto- the most original place that I have ever visited, not commercialised nor crowded with tourist. The ppl there weren't too friendly nor too hostile but possibly they're not used to tourist or Chinese tourist? the way the look at us seems a bit strange. Alan told me Porto is quite hilly and he is right, well not quite I would say Very hilly, we kept walking uphills and downhills the whole days and usual me, I started get grumpy with all the walkings especially the uphill ones!! urrgh...

Portugal reminds me of Melaca especially when I looked on the stone road in Porto, we have exactly the same stone road in melaca, and some of the old buildings are like those I used to see in Melaca jonker street, the building were quite squeezy and with narrow balcony, some with flower pot decorations, but normally it was full with hanging clothes.

The place I love the most is the Douro River, where it separated Porto and Gaia, the night scene when I climbed up to Gaia was exhilarating! the lights were shinning bright on the other side of Porto, the Porto landscape seems to me like the Lego when I used to play when I was young.

I was wondering where does Porto get it's name, and my guess was confirmed by Alan, this city produce good Port wine, and therefore it is named after the city, I then confirmed it on wikipedia that as Porto was located at the estuary of Douro river and due to the weather, it allows cultivation of grapes =) I have tried some port wine in lincoln's inn, erm... not particularly like the taste though.

A little downside of Porto or shall I say Portugal is the food, it's just nothing much choices up to us, but fries, steak and pork chop!

Okie I have writen too much about Porto seems like I have neglected the capital of Portugal, Lisbon. Well, Lisbon isn't too bad, quite a bit of attraction to cover, however I still deeply impressed by Porto, maybe of the rich herritage in Porto which made me deeply attracted to the city. But ony thing I was feeling lucky when I was in Lisbon, We managed to get involved in the tourism festival, awww wat a nice experience!

The Belem Tower was a nice experience too, Me and Alan don't need to pay for entrance coz we have a student ID, well mine student ID was expired, luckily the guy was a bit blurred and let us through =) wat a lucky escape. The Belem tower was a symbol of Portuguese discovery age, also we took pic with the monuments of discoverer. To be honest, I was a bit lack of taking pictures due to the hectic journey but luckily Alan insisted.

习惯

2009-04-21T22:43:00.002+01:00

原来我真的可以生存于习惯

第一天用新牌子的牙膏时，就觉得味道怪怪的
可能我也还蛮了解自己，想说算了反正会习惯的
（知道自己惯性很强）

果真刚刚刷牙时，发现牙膏已经快要用完了
我已经不知不觉地把牙膏用完了

第一天搬新家时就感慨要怎样生活五个月？
现在的我已近忘了当初的疑惑
习惯了。。。。。

一起相处的人也慢慢地习惯他们的陪伴
单独久了也会习惯自由与寂寞

真想知道我还有什么是习惯不能改变的？

The moment

2009-04-21T19:30:00.002+01:00

This is what ppl called 'inspiration', there will be a lot to write, too much feeling/thought that you wanna put into words.

It was yesterday when I finished work and walking back. oops b4 this b4 this, I shall start with the morning, when I walked to work, I saw two swans were cuddling each other, it was like those decorations that we normally see in the shop, where two swans are facing each other creating a heart shape in the middle. Anyway, I can't take picz down as I was RUSHING to my work well i won't be late but i MIght be if i stand there to take some picz..

so I missed it...

another one, when I m back home, I saw a seagull( or some kinds of huge bird) pecking a McDonald paper bag, at the time the road was clear, he (mayb a she, not quite sure) held the paper bag and kept looking around as if others will take it away from him. It was SO CUTE at the moment, rite since i am not rushing anywhere, I took my hp out, trying to focus on him, suddenly a car came through, he then flew away leaving the paper bag on the side of the road.

Again I missed it.... I missed the moment again, didn't I?!!

if not who knows I might be able to participate a whatever photography competition and winning the award, I love day-dreaming, making me feel like there is hope in the world ;p isn't it nice to still be in the age that can afford to day dream once in awhile ^^

explosion in the microwave~

2009-04-21T19:19:00.002+01:00

lolz...I think I am really always a 'GENIUS'

what happened?

well one bad point about myself is I am always rushing for sth, especially when I am cooking..
I will only drag till when I am STARVING I'll start do the cooking...
and oops! i forgot my boil eggs I told myself but I am too impatient to wait till the water boils and then followed by the eggs... arrghhh... no bother! I can microwave them I told myself!

Happily took a bowl and chuked two eggs and filled it up with water then put into the microwave, meanwhile was washing the dishes!

lolz!! ***BOMB*** (a loud noice) I got shocked but then i saw the microwave was open and the eggs EXPLORED!!!! all around. of coz the first thing i should find out is if the microwave is still usable? or has it spoilt?

TO MY RELIEF!! it was okie, only my eggs were like... erm... all around the table, floor and microwave?

next question is? do i consider myself lucky then? coz it's only the eggs explored and not the microwave if not I might have died?!!!!!!!!!!! Gosh~ i might have died! can't believe

so yea lesson to learn never microwave egss... n watelse?

新不了情，情不了新

2009-04-16T00:47:00.003+01:00

幸好华语没退步，还会用回文！

听了这么多的新不了情，总觉得曹格的最耐听。
每一句都那么扣人心旋，
勾起思绪的涟漪。

电影少了动听的主题曲，就像少了盐，吊不出味道
同样感人的歌曲少了故事的主轴，就没了灵魂
好像缺一不可。

记得小时候看这部戏的时候，不是很明白故事大纲，
依稀只记得结局时自己哭了。
长大后也只记得那个令我哭泣的画面
再看的时候，除了结局，更多印象深刻的画面烙印着记忆
原来小时候看不到人生的无奈
长大后竟然不想面对人生的无奈

最常问自己我的人生到底在追求什么？
好像还没能好好的对自己交待
只是一直挥霍青春与时间
真的试过抗拒长大，又如何
人生最无奈不过时间不留人，与其浪费时间发梦发呆
我不如定下心寻找我一直寻觅的答案

p.s. the snow

2009-02-05T23:31:00.003Z

It has been snowy days, after three winter, at least i see some proper snowing here. Aww~ how can i not be excited, even the local were all merry with the snow they have got here. I was told, in Bristol they haven't got such thick snow since they were 6, they used to get sliding from the small slope/hill. ha! it reminds me when i were still a kid, mummy and uncles brought me and bro with other cousin bro to play around in the waterfall, picnic, swimming, feeding monkey and it was sth so long long ago which actually doesn't pop up in my mind.

Anyway get back to my snow, i was so happily walking to work this morning, even i need to bloody wake up 7a.m in the morning and it was so cool so cool. But when i see it thru my window, it was so beautiful outside, it was still snowing, not heavily but just nice, all the roof and the cars were covered by white pristine snow. when i stepped out of my door, i can feel i stepped on the snow! it's about 2.5 inches. arrrhhh, it like stepping on those snowy ice in the freezer, well the snow is much more softer. how beautiful and romantic the whole scenery is, it's like a little me put into those decoration snow ball we normally see in the sourvenir shops. I am not too early to walk to work, but i just can't help taking picture, too beautiful~ i still rmb when i was about 13-14 my favourite season is winter time, coz m'sia we haven't got white snowy winter, and i had forgotten that i have used to love winter after i came to UK, coz i hate the chill.

you won't know how romantic the whole thing is when i put on my earphone listening to 方大同's love song.. arrghhh! it's just beautiful! it makes the journey walking to work too short (well also due to the picture taking, i am running a bit late to work, so was literally running after then, but ha! surprise surprise i m EARLY)

'Love Song　一直想寫一首Love Song　
你給了我一首 Love Song'

Today is really a happy day, not just the beautiful snow, nice song, touching voice, brilliant talent also superb movie that i have watched. PS I love you..

awwww everything for today is just beautiful, such a lovely movie. Sad movie but it makes me feel warm tho.. Nothing nothing in the world would be much more important than having those love ones with you, losing them certainly would be a disaster. For me that's the most devastating thing that would have happened. Sometimes i just don't understand why? if God really love us why He wants to pull my love ones away from me? Mayb sometimes there is just sth which i can never figure out in life.

I sometimes think how on earth could my beloved mummy manage to move on with her life when she has lost her love one? She must have had been thru the toughest of her life, such a pityful gal, makes me feel like showering her with all my love and flourish her with all I could afford. Just feeling guilty for not doing my best.

p/s: I always love you, my dearest Mummy~

What? Kuala Clown?

2009-01-10T12:56:00.003Z

well Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia is not an immaculate city (neither those big cities out there is) but how would you dare name us KUALA CLOWN!!!! Undeniable there is some black sheep who spoilt the name of this city but KL lights generally don't deserve the name " kuala clowns"

we should aware that more people are manipulating cyber world as a weapon to put on a sham, and we should not be easily deceived by those data posted on the internet as truly pointed by Mr Graham those information could be creative. However, this is not merely happened in Kuala Lumpur, if you were to read on Metro (the sister company of 7 days) in the beginning of January 2009 (can't rmb the date) it was reported that there was a sham set up to deceive ppl in giving their credit or debit card details thru email to reclaim tax. It was said that this was the most sophisticated sham the swindler has set up to trap innocent people as the emails that they sent over was under the official inland revenue emails and also when clicking on the hyperlink in the email it will bring you to an 'official' website which all details information which induce people in believing it to be something true and real, and the true is a lot of people did fall for it.

And i believe there are a lot more sham or deceiving web site all around the world especially those big cities out there, if we are KL clown what are they?

wOrk pLAce

2009-01-07T19:51:00.013Z

Though every morning when i try to force myself to unwap from my lovely warm duvet and start prepare myself to work, i start moaning, whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.... such a cold weather n i need to bloody walk 30 mins to work... GOSH!

but everytime in the morning when i walk through these places it makes me thinks if i leave this place one day, i will miss it. n also this chill weather i will probably miss it too.. So, i took some picture of it..save it for my future reminiscence.

bristol river,mercure hotel bristol castle,christmas market

from: st paul's playground from: victoria st,river bridge

path to work- Helphire from: outside HH

bristol castle path bristol castle path

ouch! cabot circus is a MaSsIVe EvIL~

2009-01-07T19:06:00.002Z

it's always true to say that there is always two sides of the same coins.

living in city is convenient, it's handy but also it examines one's perseverance, learning how to keep away from temptation and enticement is tough though.

OHHHHhhhh especially when it comes to sth that khim can barely resist and defy :-)

also one thing good about credit crunch is that stuff nowadays is unbelieveable cheap to attract sales.. how could a reasonable girl would be able to resist owning cheap n NECESSARY stuff..
absolutely no way right, as otherwise would be unreasonable ;p and ya obviously u are being unreasonable if u disagree >.*

Hem... anywayz.. good that i m still far from being a shopaholic!! YA! I m NOT, NOT YET a SHOPAHOLIC. well... my perseverance might be challenge sometimes but not all the time, still sometimes rational will take place!

After all i m just a smart customer =) i.e one who knows when is the best time to spend!

我的开心青春期回忆

2008-12-07T22:42:00.003Z

看了五月天上的谈话性节目，勾起我中学时期的回忆。

原来回忆里都是满满的笑声与快乐，

好像还记得每天都好想去上课，

每天都有预想不到的笑料。

真的很感谢老天，虽然慢慢长大后，烦恼比快乐多

但是至少让我拥有这份快乐回忆，

好像人生永远都有希望！

一个人孤单的时候也会微微的笑。

只怪那时没有好好把每个时刻捕抓，

好让现在可以慢慢沉浸。

其实只要自己知道我的快乐容易满足，就够了

而且现在的我是最没有压力的

想到要chambering时压力就大了，所以珍惜现在啰！

偷了maekhee 的一幅照片，好可爱哦！像个smiley face ;)

上天大费奏章让我笑，我也就笑了

two stars above a half moon creating a smiley face above the sky
and yes it happened in my m'sia ;)

恋爱的感觉

2008-12-07T13:53:00.003Z

看见了好友的部落格，才发现原来我进步得很慢，
部落格写到‘恋爱了’通了两次的电话觉得幸福满满，
要约会了，到底要和他去那里？
感觉出那种刚热恋的幸福与甜蜜
好为我的这位好友开心。

每次都好想拥有幸福哦，但每次都对幸福犹豫不决。
每次都觉得自己要的很简单，但每次又觉得要的不止这样。
好像觉得这次我尽力，努力了，但好像都不是我想象的。
是我不会表达，还是我懒得表达，还是我太天真?
对的人须要辛苦表达吗？

学会依赖了，因该觉得幸福吧，为什么我会觉得惶恐。
可能我现在才认知我是典型的外冷内热，外悍内弱。
害怕失去所以不想建立

我一直多相信真爱会带来幸福
可就觉得不会发生在莉琴身上
可能老天一对莉琴很眷顾了
旦愿我身边的人可以寻得幸福

其实从很久以前就想要有一个狗狗可以陪陪我。
因为它的名字就叫幸福呵呵 ;)
好期待哦！

Meaning of Life~

2008-12-07T01:04:00.002Z

Every year I have got the same question in my mind, so... what's the meaning of life?

Is it only when one is too free, this question start poping up, or when you think you start losing yourself and losing your way? Actually does it really matter?

sometimes I am like a fool keep losing myself? I sometimes really don't know wat am I aftering and what have I done right and wrong. It is just decision made, who knows right or wrong? But will I regret if I made the choice? There is always danger in making decision, isn't it?! But, nothing venture, nothing gain.

Now that I know coldiness and loneliness will make a person feel weak innerly, until I can't believe that it's me. Until i start dislike myself being such a loser, i start to worried actually i am not as strong as I thought? Why do i feel like i wish to just lean on someone, someone who would be able to just let me lean on and direct me the way.

Possibly it's time for me to face the truth - there is no way out, when it's late and you are all alone, perhaps the only way is to keep walking, keep walking despite of fatigue & depression.... Coz maybe? maybe? there will be a silver lightning, and if I dun give up MAYBE MAYB I can see RAINBOW across the sky. erm...... seems like life still full of hope, perhaps my meaning of life is to keep discovering different HOPES in life?

Hey Khim- you are so tiny so so so tiny in the universe, now that you am given a chance to live on earth why shall I not seize every of my day?

hem... perhaps i need to change my attitude, always reckon I am too lay back and not pro active enough in pursuing aims & goals.

okok!! this time round I am not going to just sit back and waste my time anymore!
FIGHTING FIGHTING khim!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

innermost discovery

2008-12-02T03:27:00.002Z

people always say the most difficult person you can ever confront is yourself.

Totally agree as it is always difficult to mirror ourselves and confront our own weaknesses.

TODAY, khim is telling herself to be less weak, less sentitive more independent!

I didn't know I am that weak inherently, blame it on the weather and the coldness or blame it on loneliness...

I start being skeptical to my ability to control my emotional, my standard of maturity and my level of rationality, when i used to dislike people who being too sensitive and easily be emotionally afffect, why have I turned into one of those? Where is the khim who used to be rational and decisive?

What is the best way to find my way out of this? Hopefully confusion is the path lead to some inspiration eventually. Mayb in my dream i might get some hints...

Here I AM ~

2008-11-19T21:01:00.004Z

I think JJ is right to say that my life from 0 year till now is basically pretty lucky.

When life comes o this stage, I always ask myself the same question, what's my purpose? My objective of life? Yet still I don't think I have come to a satisfying answer. Main issue is probably bcoz I am not proactive enough and sometimes too ignorant.

But Life has given me so many opportunities.

Ist- year 2004, chose to do law in help
2nd- year 2006, flew to UK studying law
3rd- year 2007 tried to apply BVC fortunate enough I was accepted and more fortunate I
have got my family who supported me
4th- year 2008, tried to apply psw1 to stay back, not having too much hope yet was given leave
to stay.

When I think about it maybe life has been a bit easy for me, there still isn't any big problem which can't be overcome. seems like I am given all that I am aftering, hence I am too weak when I come to little challenge/obstacle.

First time in life I think I have tried to fight for what I want. Although it is not something great which I should be proud of myself, but I usually just sit down and think of what I want to do and will never take action.

Now that everything has settled down, I try to recall how I manage to come to this stage. Honestly, I am glad that I did not give up when I face obstacles. There is time where I really start thinking of giving up and go back, I wonder what is the will power which keeps me going eventhough it was so depressing sometimes. I never been so homesick b4 yet I kept persuade mummy to let me stay back, bcoz of this we quarrel not only once. In order to save, I moved house not only once. Due to depression, I cried not only once.

Mayb coz I am the only one left here in Bristol which makes me more sensitive and gloomy but I am gratitude at this stage I have overcome all these and manage to fulfill a little promise to myself. Thanks to those who has encouraged me not to give up, otherwise I would have given up easily. It's really not easy coming to this stage, therefore it is really important I would be able to do what I wish to.

After this, I fully understand the importance of giving a try to buy an opportunity, there is always a way if there is a will, it really depends how much you want it to be. if target is set, no matter how tough it is going to be, just focus on the goal and keep going, i believe it won't take me long to fulfill the goal set.

Khim's resolution: must seize this opportunity. Be more initiative and take action.

p/s: don't keep procrastinate and waste your time at the end of the day.

Life mayb predictable mayb unpredictable, khim is expecting what's next to her life ;p

homesicky

2008-10-11T18:24:00.002+01:00

i can't believe I could be this depress bcoz of homesick. When i saw my dear mummy and family walked into the departure gate, my tears start dripping down, I tried really hard to hold it and supress my feeling as I don't wanna show my true emotion in front of my mummy, or should say I am too shy to show it, But as they walked into the gate, my tears can't be held anymore. I used to hear ppl saying when they feel hearbreaking, their heart can literally feel the pain and sometimes you feel so bad where you can't breathe, I don't use to believe or realise how painful it can be, but this time I seriously understand how painful it could come to be.

Me taking underground back to victoria station, i tried to calm myself down as i never used to cry in public, for me crying is to personal to do it in front of public, but awww~ my tears again just kept dripping down without reason, everytime when i thought of the time we spent together, happy dinner together, picture and crowded in a lousy dorm my heart felt so heavy, and my eyes were turning red and so painful.

i tried different ways to persuade myself I am making a right decision to stay which i still think it is, but its just the sorrowness won't leave, tears won't stop. I hate myself being so emotional as this shouldn't be sth so depressing, I hate myself being such a lousy person and being so weak.
why can't I be stonger ? and just go ahead with my decision?

I miss my dear mummy so much so much, and my lil bro eventho i din see him here, I miss my lil gugu who always like to exaggerate, my uncle who behaves like a lil kid, aunt and yings' sis. I think Bi is right, they existence make me feel like i am having a family here, making me feel so secure and comfy eventho they sometimes too chatty and noisy, but without them I feel so much so that I am alone here! awwwwww~

bcoz of them, now I have so many memory in london.

I hope it is just bcoz i m not used to their leaving and will b recovering soon!

p/s khim: RMB ur aim n work hard for watever you want to achieve!!!!! AZA AZA!!!!!!

开始懂了

2008-09-13T21:13:00.002+01:00

I believe if I am alone in my room now, I would look for a sad movie, or listen to a sad song (listening now with my earphone) and I would be crying my lungs out... and I will feel very relief and comfortable after it =) erm......

开始懂了reminds me I used to like this song a lot when i was in secondary form 5/form6? i can't really rmb.. but those were the happy days.

I haven't got any special thing which I wanna put down as record just when i listen to this song it makes me wanna blog bout sth.. eventho without any aims, I just feel like writing down sth when I am listening to it..

把我的梦摇醒了
宣布幸福不会来了
用心酸微笑去原谅了
也翻越了有昨天还是好的
但明天是自己的开始懂了

我想我只是无聊

5 weeks after work

2008-09-09T22:03:00.003+01:00

I always wanna blog sth about my thoughts and feeling when i just start working, but i kept draggin due to the fact I have loads of bits and boobs to settle and arrange, moving houses, looking for jobs, working part time et cetera.

I can still rmb vividly somewhere aroung end of July and beginning of Aug was the most depressing moment to me. Glad i am using the word WAS, it does indicate I am movin on quite well now, tho not excellence but at least i think things are getting better. I was quite worried i was trapped in the abysmal depression, coz i can't imagine myself being so emo, even walking on the street i can't hold my tears dripping. Now that i look at it, is my EQ that low? I can't handle simple pressure and small Tiny little minute obstables in life? I think tat's call lack of confidence, I am scared I am overwhelmed with worries... I am scared things is not going to work out as I wish, I am scared things are out of my control, ultimately I am scared I am not as good as I thought.
It was a moment where I was basically covered with bewilderment.
however, i think the ordeal is not coming to an end yet, i suppose there is still lots yet to come.

But now that i m sitting in front of my pc, being able to online, blog, I think I m no longer depress, well i should put it in this way, if i were to start working in KL it will not make me feel less depress but prolly weather plays a very vital roles, working in KL is prolly not going to cause any depression but more frustration, here in UK is not that much of frustration but depression. Especially these days where the weather is crap, moody bluey sky, rainning from day till night, really encourage me not to wake up and keep STUCKIN myself in my lovely duvet..aww.. i want that...

missing uni life is definitely... missing those days where i stayed with janice n even year b4 (degree) happiest moment in UK... laughter and joy is the only thing i can rmb. Now that I am alone all by myself in Bristol, leave me a question for myself, should I actually change my way of living? not to live in my own confort zone, but try to mix around as much as possible, well not that I have not think of that but i m really lazy and unwilling to do that. I still feel very confortable with myself and close friends..

family and friends.. eventho I always say I am closely connect to my family n friends, somehow i think we have been dragged apart, I no longer involved in their part and parcel daily life, i won't noe what's my bro doing, has he been better? when I heard my mom complaining bout his bad attitude I am sad I was not there to advise him, All because i know how's the feeling of being alone with stress, I am sad I am not with my mom to share hers. similar stuff to my close friends, because i m too far from them, it makes it difficult for them to update me, but i think myself sok jm n ss have endeavoured to update each others.. which is good.. aww.. just miss them!

Having said so, I still think i m so so so blessed. I already been travelling around in so many countries, I m working in UK (tho not a brilliant job ;p) I have got so many around me supporting me. And the fact that eventho I can't survive here I still have got a home to go back make me feel so warm and blessed a place which always welcomin me no matter wat happened.
awww~
Also not too bad here, I have got del n Alan here with me tho in cardiff but it's good enuf, and also I have got my own resolution for this coming year =) thinking of the resolution it's like a small lil motivation to keep me goin...

Alrite another motivation is now prompting me.. GO to my lovely bed ;p
nitez khim =) yay!!!

confused

2008-07-29T11:11:00.003+01:00

it was a very nice holidays, spending time with close friends, sight seeing the most beautiful architect and scencery in the world, eating delicious foods, chilling and relaxing. It was really nice. Unfortunately, happy time is always short (eventho sweet but always short) After holidays is all daily chores, frustrating stuff etc, well life has not been too bad but i think i really not good in choosing especially when i am put in a crossroad, hanging in the middle, hate the feeling of donno where to go.

Somtimes i tell myself actually it is really not a big deal, if i can go with X road then juz swap to Y road, feel much better if i think so, but if i ever think otherwise, i really dun like the feeling of hanging. But life is juz about making decisions and choosing the path u thought is rite..

Sometimes i blame why can't everything juz go smoothly? but i think i knew sometimes it is very much bcoz of me, i m juz such a lousy person, an undecisive and procrastinator, and at the end things juz not goin to go rite.. ohhhhhh!!!!

I feel like juz let thing goes as it wishes, but when i thought of this, i knew I am actually insisting of sth else which i dun wish to give up easily. And confusion juz creep in, and i start not knowin wat to choose and wat to do. I really wonder is it only me who is such a failure or i am juz too weak to overcome barriers in life?

I start realising i am not as strong as i thought and i so bad in facing difficulties.. coz a lil bit of prob will make me feel miserable and frustrated.

If life is filled with choces i hope i have opted the right one

I think I feel bad bcoz i m fear to make decision, makin me undecisive

2008-06-18T02:19:00.002+01:00

i told myself i need to finalise my cv tonitez n the cover letter, but again i draged it... but i feel so guilty not doing anything in the night but juz wasting my time... because i really realise the fact that time equals to money... procrastinating means i am basically wasting $$$

awww~ now i know why ppl will become a miser after sometime, earning money is really not easy especially in other ppl's country.. spending money is always easy, u juz need one sec to spend all that u have earned in a week.. erm! i think this is really a good time for me to learn how to use my money wisely tho i still can't resist to shop ;p

anywayz.. juz to remind myself!! FINALISE UR CV N COVER LETTER BY TOMOLO!!!! DUN EVER PROCRASTINATE AGAIN!!!! no no no!
ok good nite!

four lilttle stitchy on my little finger =.=

2008-05-25T11:42:00.004+01:00

Munster Vs. ( i forgot wat's the name it is a french team)
it was a grand day in cardiff coz it was the heineken final rugby cup.. the whole cardiff was so happening.. everyone is wearin red walkin on the street.. well i honestly dunno anything bout rugby but del told me it was quite fun watchin it..

Okie second time workin in millenium stadium.. i hope i work in the box again this time coz i will b given TIPS ;p n yea me n del were assigned to the same box.. even better! so we happily changed our uniform.. it looked like stewardess tho.. anywayz.. we need to set up the box etc b4 the customer come in.. and were given briefin.. it was quite lengthy and i got so bored by it.. and when it comes this ' if any accident happens ple let xxx noe she will b bla bla bla' well i was thinkin this is simple waitressin stuff wat kinda accident would happen? prolly coz i din see any after working catering for so long.. anywayz i juz din give too much attention to it..

okiedoks.. customer came in we served lunch then the match kicked off.. everything was quite good.. me n del got another blonde gal in our box which was good coz she was nice n hardworking! and bcoz of her ( me n del thought so) we got loads of tips ;p yippie again..

well it was not a tough day it was a bit bz but it was manageable.. n the time passed quite quickly tho.. and it is near the time where we can get home! HOOO RAY!! and at this every moment!!!
u can hear khim OOucch in front of the basin =.= i m so so so zd by myself!! how can this happen? i washed the wine glass and polished them but when i put it on the table prolly i put too much pressure on it or wat.. i dunno the glass juz broke n the glasses juz went tru my LITTLE FINGER!! yea and it was the right little finger =.= but i m strong enuf I DIN CRY =) (sounds a bit kiddo)

then i was sent to the hospital to get my cut stitched up!! wuao!! first time in my life man... i m quite cool still coz i dun think it is goin to be big issue.. but meanwhile i tot i should b careful coz it might have some consequence.. well my little finger was wrapped up now.. n it is huge now!! hopefully 7 days later i can get the bandage off n the stitches off as well.. GOsh i really can't imagine juz a cut and i need to stitch my finger =( but the whole thing wasn't too bad coz i have got del n alan accompanyin.. n a nice employer as well.. (she is the one i mentioned in the beginnin if u have had an accident pls see bla bla bla.. i never noe she is so important till now.. )

yea and i have got a story for the scare on my little finger.....hem...

=.=

2008-05-18T02:09:00.003+01:00

Today is definitely not really a good day for me, i m not workin but wastin my time in my room, was thinknin to give my mom a call since for few days.. duno why we started this issue again, going back and not.. n yes we started quarrellin again.. everytime when we touch this issue it is inevitable for us to quarrel i really dun understand is my prob or my mom still can't understand me now?! and my mom is always the only one who can affect my emotional easily, from happy to sad... prolly she is always the one who i care the most! n i m always such a failure, n i m still..

This is not bad enuf, after surfing net for awhile i saw some news regards to the earthquarke in sichuan.. then i youtubed it, i think watchin video is always better than juz to read the words.. and i am rite, after watching the clips and some reported news my emotional was affected to the maximum.. i can't hold it anymore.. i sometimes dun understand.. mother nature is the greatest thing but yet very cruel sometimes.. and all my problems when i compare it to nature disaster i really can't imagine how tiny and minute my probs are..they are no longer a prob when compare to those who are still struggling with life in sichuan..

is it life so fragile and unpredictable? while ppl in the other end of the world is living happily, spending time with their family and friends, ppl in SiChuan has encounter such a great disaster.. sometimes i really dun understand the meaning of life? But when i see all the NGO working so hard to help i seems to understand a bit bout life..and i m blaming myself being so useless.. i merely noe how to sit in front of the PC feeling bad but doing nothing.. is this much that i can do?

At nite... initially was very happy to chat wif alan.. but after a while i dunno how we started this conversation.. and yes i was asked.. is it rite to be so liberal? I dunno i really dunno what is rite and wat is wrong some point in life? is it sth wrong wif being liberal? sth may b rite in my eyes but not neccesary in other opinions.. and do i really care? i juz dun wanna be so judgmental thinkin everyone is the world is wrong and i m rite.. who am i on the earth to say this thing? i think i still believe in my own theory.. so long we are not doing anythin hurting other ppl, we are not doing sth wrong eventho it might not be rite.. isn't it so? things juz gonna being complicated when we grown up.. but i tot it suppose to be very simple? isn't it? and it is really we who make the whole thing go complicated.. aiks.. i really dun care about this in this point of time coz i see bigger prob.. fragility of human life.. wat i noe is juz appreciate what i have now.. tat's it! n it is really tat's it!

a decision

2008-05-12T21:07:00.002+01:00

I always find myself a little bit difficult in making a decision, perhaps i am too easily influenced by the others, and easily give up after making a decision, perhaps i am a person who is lack of perseverance. Prolly i am too used to an easy life, tat's why i am not firm in the decision made.

Should this be the best time to test myself and start training myself be more firm n b more persevere. i never wake up in the morning to exercise when i said it the nitez b4, i never go on diet after complainin that i have put on weight, i never stop watchin dram when i told myself it need to study later... am i being too good to myself, where i should start to be a bit harsh myself. Am i too undiscipline where i should be more organised?

aihhh! been knowing all these shortcomings long ago n keep giving feedback to myself, but yet still i haven't overcome my problems.. WAT IS WRONG WIF ME?

Again! i understand this wouldn't bring me any further if i keep living with all these defects!
perhaps it is really time for me to learn, how life should be, how can i live more effectively? n not giving up easily whenever i encounter some little prob... i give up too easily.. too keen in living in my own comfort zone.. the more i think about it the more i realise how useless am i actually..
i have no stand at all, i am easily affected, easily influenced easily givin up, not initiative enuf!
aihhhh~ am i really tat useless? well yea if i still dun give it a try this time n start work things out, i m really rubbish... come on! prove it to urself n prove it to others! walk your own ways n show ppl ur way!

Keep trying! try hard n don't be easily defeated! i will b proud of u if u make it at the end of the day! keep urself motivated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IF U THINK U CAN U CAN DE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FIGHTING FIGHTING!!!

MilanO

2008-05-10T19:55:00.004+01:00

post milan

well it was a rather rush trip to milan where we only spent a night in milan..

i think everytime after visiting a place in europe i will have a strong feeling of unbelievable.. i wonder y till now i still can't believe it i m travellin in europe.. perhaps i think these places are too far from me, somewhere which i can only see it in the movie and now that i am here, i always find it like a dream...

first impression of milan... =.= it is like paris, crowded with cars n ppl.. n the cars unlike ppl in UK, ppl in milan drive aggressively, even the traffic indicated for the ppl to cross the road, the cars never stop... wat? much more serious compare to KL... but something good about these europe country is tat u don't really need to pay for the bus/tram.. coz the bus driver never check!! especially in the morning where it was crowded with ppl, the ppl juz hop in n hop out.. even it was less ppl, i saw ppl juz get it without checkin their ticket.. ( same thing happened in rome too) wuao imagine if we dun have to pay for bus in kl!!

okie... anywayz... the nitez of milan was so much more beautiful... i love its street with some nice cafe on the side..the road was bricks ( i wonder if it is) but it is not the usual asphalt road, also the weather was absolutely fine tat day, making me feel so comfortable while walking on the street..

one thing i discovered is why ppl always think milan, paris etc are romantic coz they do have beautiful architect, huge and full of artistry, although they might be polluted to a certain extent, crowded with ppl and cars. That's why when it comes to night where all these things disappear, and where all those beautiful building and lighting attract you, you can see the beauty of the city. u feel like slowing down your pace and appreciate its beauty and atmosphere.

having said so, milan doesn't have much spot to look around, but there has lotsa lotsa massive big branded shops, so if you are filthy rich ppl, milan is definately the best place, but for poor student like me.. window shoppin is more than enuf ;p anywayz, i got my pistachio ice-cream there i m more than contended =)

ohhh ya we went to the beautiful church ( the spot of Married a Rich Man) luckily hong told us to ignore those ppl there giving out pigeon's food, coz after they give u the food then they will ask $$ from u! and they will keep coming... so u must put on a firm face to shake them off!!

Heathrow airport

2008-04-29T19:09:00.003+01:00

after waiting for 5 hours within 2 days in Heathrow i think i have observed some interesting stuff and come out with some little thoughts..

1st day in Heathrow.. after 2 hour bus from bristol malborough station, i reached heathrow, this place looks a bit familiar coz i have been here once when i came back from m'sia in sept 2007, but yet a bit strange to me! well this time i was assigned a task, to pick up student from India and sent them back bristol safe and sound!

rite, i was waiting patiently after i knew that the plane was landed in heathow.. so i waited, waited and WAITED!!! after an hour i began to worried coz i scared i have missed them, so i paged them and i was told minimum i need to wait for 2 hours n max i need to wait for 4HOURS.. wat? well tat's okie dun mind waiting so long i din miss them. So in the 3 rd hour i started to feel a bit awkward, i dun think i will miss a bunch of India student hem~ but wat was happennin in the custom?! was the queue tat long? out of the blue i heard someone paging for student representative, okie give it a try perhaps they were looking for me! PHEW~ it was them, i managed to get them finally... phew phew phew~ if not i really dunno wat to do in the huge n bz airport!

okie~ wat had i been doin in this three hours? i started lookin at ppl, started observing their facial expression, even their luggages, n ppl waiting there as well! Airport is really an interesting place, u can see happy faces, the moment of touch, a touch of love etc well in summary u can see humanity...

First observation- a chap quite tall, bristish i suppose coz he is blond, carrying a big bag, w/o huge luggage, walking out from the custom, a gal and another chap waiting for him were yelling his name and rush towards him, the gal helped him with the huge bag, while the two guys bearhug each other, (at first i tot they might be...) but i was wrong, coz then i saw a lady and a man appeared to be his father and mother hugging together, so i assume they are a family, brother sister relationship..

I always tot only among Asian we have this big concept about family, but when i saw the father was hugging his son and his eyes turned red with tears drippn down, i noe again i was wrong! they have strong bond as well, i hardly saw them said anything to each other, they were only hugging and cuddling each other. And tat's such simple thing which makes u feel the touch of love, without the needs of exchanging any words. U can deeply feel they care for each other and love each other. Then they walked away together, i guess they will have a nice family dinner reunion follow up.

second observation, having said that i think chinese has a rooted concept as to family, i think chinese is the less expressive one, hardly any chinese there when they saw their family will express themselves that they have missed each others, they were all so shy juz nodded their head to each other and juz a swallow smile, nothing agressive. hem... i wonder this is really a good way where we act so humble? Coz even Indians are quite expressive, the younger will touch the elderly's leg to show respect, then hug together lotsa body languages u can notice but can hardly see this happen to chinese...

another sweet thing i saw, two gals i suppose in the age of 16, 17 they made a card, a big card and wrote DAD N MOM, WE LOVE U... waiting patiently for their dad n mom and keep putting up the card if there were anyone coming out.. and when they saw their parents same thing they hugged them kissed them on the cheek n i saw the gals crying... aww~ how sweet were they!

I guess sometimes we are too shy to tell our parent how much we care bout them, but with this lil action they will b able to feel it, but even this we are shy to do. But i was wondering if we dun tell and we don't make any active action will they noe? will they understand? prolly last time i will think well... tis should put in the heart and not on the mouth... but i think now i have changed my mindset, i think of coz i will put it in my heart, meanwhile i need to tell her as well... so tat she knows it... i think this is a much more effective way!

ohhh apart from being emotional, i was materialistic too gosh! erm!! when i saw some branded bags or luggages within my view line, i juz can't stop lookin at it.. i think it is time for me to wake up!!! stop being materialistic! one of the disadvantages coming to UK is definitely having more knowledge in bags.. aiks.. well.. there is always pros n cons hehe ^^

ohh ya nearly forget ( distracted by the bags thinggy) after this heathrow trip i learnt something i think, i must try my best to pick up my family, friends, lover in the airport coz it really do means a lot for them or prolly for us, i do think it is something very sweet!! aww so sweet ;p

a column writer/ blogger

2008-04-23T01:03:00.002+01:00

i m always inspired by those colume writer or fantastic blogger writing about their thoughts and/or life experience. take some of some frez as examples, whenever i read their blog i got so amazed by how they express a particular thought or a relatively simple feeling, their choice of words are so powerful n expressive. I m so amazed because this is the thing i never know how to do. However, I do always think that words were the best invention in the world, the beauty of words, the beauty of communication and i think tat's wat makes us the so called ' the most intelligence' genus on earth.

Words it can be so vague but on the other hand so explicit. sometimes diff choice of words would twist the whole situation. I take it that u would have come across those ppl who u think is very irritating bcoz they never noe how to speak the right thing in the right time, they were so annoying that they always mess up the atmosphere by saying some nonsensical stuff, u might call them a pest, sth that u deserted so much. Nevertheless, u would also have come across ppl who are humorous, who speaks interestingly n comfortably, i m sure everyone would like to mix with these ppl, or m i wrong? doubted.

When it comes to man n woman sometimes communication become so essential, especially ppl always say, man are from mars n women from venus, two diff creature who are far apart from each other. No doubt communication would b essential but these two diff creature would have some selective hearing, they only listen to what they wanna listen but not they don't! am i wrong again? well~ explorable...

question arises now, if i were to be a writer, wat would my story be? or wat sort of material i would be looking at? some thoughts catch my mind.. prolly a girls in her twenties? but i was no longer a gal in her fabulous 21 iishh.. also not a gal in her twisting 25, not yet a gal in 29 turnin into 30 okie~ so not really interetin in this.. how about a poor gal living her life in UK? aiks but i dun think i spend as wise as housewife so forget about it hem~ or something sounds like split personality, nerdy vs crazy gal, ha! quite an interesting one, or a romantic cinderella/snow white pejorative storyline in real life? huh.. i think i would definitely write sth non-connected to my current life, perhaps then i m given a chance to explore for my second life?

another tranquil nitez

2008-04-03T05:26:00.002+01:00

it's a nite end with 'i'll be there
Everytime when i'm listening to my favourite song in such a serene nite,
i sincerely feel that this is the life that i m looking for...
it's tat simple, i can feel my felicity!
it's like eating ur favourite dessert which u have been craving for a long time...

24 hours a day, i think this might be the most contented moment i have..
prolly i can't say it is the happiest moment,
coz it is not a feeling of happiness
but more like a feeling of being contented, satisfied, appreciating n of coz calmest moment..
everytime when i feel sleepy in this hour,
i will be so reluctant to go to bed coz i wanna seize this very precious moment,
i dun wanna waste it by going to bed early...

i feel like i owned the nite
so comfortable and so easeful...
watelse can i be craving for for my life?
contented that i m given a pair of ears to listening to all my favourite musics, sounds etc.
given a pair of eyes to look into the sky n stars n daydream in de nitez
given a mouth to eat the tastiest dessert/ food in the world
given a healthy life to spend my night in such a way!!!
i truly considered myself lucky enuf to live my life'....

just call my name n i'll b there.. aww... too sleepy where i need to end my nitez soon....
byebye my reverie island...

Best that you can do is?

2008-03-29T02:16:00.002Z

What is a nice song?
A song which will make u indulge in reminiscence..

What is a nice movie?
A movie which will make u lost in reverie..

So what is a nice life?
What is the best you can do?
The best that you can do is fall in love..

you may agree, you may disagree
a metaphorical way of describing love is like water..
when it is still and calm, it may carry a boat safely
when it is fierce and stormy, it may overturn the boat

Love can enhance ur life by making it more colourful more beautiful..
on the other hand it may bring disaster and make you feel wretched..

Once in a life you find her,
someone that turns your heart around,
what do you think the craziest thing you can do?
If you get caught between the moon and Bz city
what is the best thing u think u can do?

mayb i dunno myself

2008-03-17T22:58:00.002Z

sometimes even i can't read my own mind, how could i expect ppl to read mine's?
arrrghh! why is it so difficult? i think i never learn how to get along well...
mayb i m juz too selfish.. mayb i m afraid of sth... but i still dunno why is it so..

i juz never like this kinda feeling... feel so miserable... iiishh..

missin my lil bro n mummy

=23.09

A tight slap on BN?!

2008-03-09T15:02:00.004Z

we voice out our intention by exercising our democratic right in the 12th general election!

if ppl who is thinkin of giving up malaysia politic this is the time where the malaysian prove to you where they are not ignorant n refuse to move forward. We make changes not by blaming, we made it via ACtIon!

Time where a dominant party has gone, evntho bn still able to form government by a simple majority however they have encounter the greatest setback in the past 50 years where they lost their dominant on the 2/3 parliament seats. This is the intention of the ppl, ppl wish for changes!

so many surprise we were given in this election!
- BN lost 2/3 dominant
-Datuk Sharizat lost her seat to Nurul Anwar
-Datuk Kok Tsun kon LOST his seat
- Datuk SAmmi vellu- ( well very much expected but yet still considered as an expected surprise)
-BN lost 5 states compare to one in last election!

why BN encountered such a great setback.. u will easily find the answer by lookin into the ppl voices!!

1. continuous inflation!! higher cost of living has made ppl live in urban area much more burdensome. Bread and Butter issue has became more n more pertinent nowadays which attract more concern!

2. increasing crime rate!! unbelievable high crime rate, i still rmb in the previous election the BN has put up a slogan in regards to stability n peaceful... it should be shame on the governmnet where the crime rate has increased tremendously in the past few years!

3. corruption in judiciary!! wat can i say more?! more n more examples has been revealed? Only if the government stop intervening the judiciary, more justice n fairness will be served if not dun talk about law coz at the end of the day power corrupts justice!

4. racism! issue of racist should not be overly politicised!

The General Election is the best way the ppl demonstrate their view n their needs!! This so called politic tsunami is due to the very fact that the ppl's needs were not addressed in the past few years!

However, the 'victory' of the opposition should not merely be overwhelmed by happiness, this is the beginning of their task!! they won the ppl's trust now, issue arises now is how they going to fulfill their agenda and not letting the ppl down?! This is no doubt a good start, the question is how well they can lead us to?!

霸王别姬

2008-03-01T15:16:00.002Z

往事不要再提　人生已多風雨
縱然記憶抹不去愛與恨都還在心裡
真的要斷了過去讓明天好好繼續
你就不要再苦苦追問我的消息
愛情它是個難題讓人目眩神迷
忘了痛或許可以忘了你卻太不容易
你不曾真的離去你始終在我心裡
我對你仍有愛意我對自己無能為力
因為我仍有夢依然將你放在我心中
總是容易被往事打動總是為了你心痛
別流連歲月中我無意的柔情萬種
不要問我是否再相逢不要管我是否言不由衷
為何你不懂別說我不懂只要有愛就有痛
有愛就有痛有一天你會知道
人生沒有我並不會不同沒有你會不同
人生已經太匆匆我好害怕總是淚眼矇陇
忘了我就沒有痛
忘了你也沒有用
將往事留在風中將往事留在風中

因为音乐我不寂寞

2008-02-07T17:22:00.000Z

走在学校的跑道上，迎面微凉的风儿
重重的书本，厚厚的外衣，
架着眼镜的我，阑珊的走着，
一个人的旅程，虽然累人
但不寂寞，因为音乐的陪伴

没有音乐的孤独，倍感冷清无奈
世界变得dull dull 的，很像英国的天气
灰灰的，沉沉的，暗暗的
沮丧不已

沮丧的我，戴上耳机
开始用心感受生活
好想默默的记住
好想好好的感应
生活的点滴

虽然天气阴晴不定
却让生活多姿多彩
多了好几份感慨
也学会了珍惜

滚滚红尘，红尘滚滚

2008-01-20T20:21:00.000Z

看了一部令我很想重写部落格的戏

想是人事间的错，或前世流传的因果
终生的所有也不惜换取刹那阴阳的交流

庆幸自己不是生于乱世，但却对生于乱世的精彩人生好奇不已。乱世不止造英雄也造佳人，人生的聚散在乱世中像泡沫，分易分，聚难聚，哭干了眼泪还是盼不到你朝思暮想的那个人。可能是生不逢时，也许是天意弄人，在这样的乱世我们可以怨天怨地，感慨时世。精彩的故事很多时候是因为有不平凡的背景，因为平淡的曲调不会造就扣人心旋，荡气回肠的音律，但是这些澎湃的感觉最终换来的都是让人心酸的结局。

一个人可以在有生之年，遇到一个你可以不惜所有都要爱的人，人生已圆满了一半，若也有一个生死知己，这样的人生夫复何求？

真的要傻，就一次傻个够吧！要挥霍就尽情的挥霍，因为到穷困潦倒的时候，就会醒觉爱的太傻。现实会唤醒一个人的梦，只是会不会太迟？

经历风雨的人，就想归于平淡。平淡似清水的生活才能给予最大的安全感，好好的生活。人最终还是归于最简单的东西-- 一个可以依赖的家，一个属于自己的家。

A touch of love/warmness in the cold city

2007-10-25T23:10:00.000+01:00

yeah last dinner session for this term!! finally i find it happy to attend dining in london! looking closely to lincoln's inn, it is really a beatiful place, really like harry potter in the evening.. when all the light are on n the candles around. Ancient buiding wif a small little fountain in the middle with trees surrounding it. Hanging aorund wif interesting n learned ppl make me feel so contented when talkin to them n meanwhile felt that i m so little n so poor.

Tonitez me n janice decided to walk across the bridge of River Thames. Wuah... wat a nice scenery while walking on the bridge, on the left we have lots of landmark building, on the right we have the london eye and westminister. we were talking bout wat a miracle both of us were now walking on the bridge across river thames after dining in lincoln's inn... sometimes life is juz impredictable, isn't it?! but yea really appreciated this. gratitute!

well. the whole point of this is not talkin bout how great i feel. When we reached a bus station n wanted to hop up, i realised that my oyster card was out of credit =( i couldn't get up , but janice edi paid for it.. so no choice but separated. I look at the ticket machine in front of me wonderin how m i goin to use it, then i realised i dun have any coins wif me.. oooo gosh i need to walk back!
when i was wonderin, an old lady well not really old about 40-50, came to me n asked me whether i noe how it works, n i said i dun really noe. she tot i dun understand english n explain the instruction to me but i then told her yea but i dun have any coins, then ask her whether she knows how to walk back to my fren's place?!

she told me not to b silly to walk back n she took 2 coins from her purse asked me to buy a ticket but no i m not goin to take her coins, i felt so bad juz takin her money, not much different from a begger. i asked the way to walk back but she insist i take the money n buy a ticket. AT that moment i was really touched i gave her a hug n she gave me a kiss on my cheeck! aww wat a lovely lady, i said i felt so bad to juz take ur money, n she replied nvm if next time i c her son in asian country, give him a help.

At that moment it's like a touch of love. Tho i dunno her nor her son, but this is love i think w/o barrier. ppl cares n love each other w/o taking into consideration of races, religious, etc. i always tot ppl in london is more selfish, self-centered but i m so wrong! i have met lots of nice ppl in london. WHen i juz reached heathrow n need to take tube to victoria station, along the way lots of ppl volunteer their help! when i m lookin for lincoln's inn, kind-hearted gentleman help me to find for it!

I shouldn't b so judgmental sayin that ppl in city is cold blooded, in fact many of them are very helpful! n this let me have a diff preception as to the city n also to the world. had it not bcoz of all these ppl, this world will not b cute, the world no longer lovely!

I perhaps apart from wat is law, this is one of the best thing that i have learnt from the british!

world is still very lovely, if we look at it positively n try out best to b helpful. it starts from individual n begin from ourselves!

life back in UK

2007-09-08T00:05:00.000+01:00

it has been a week since i am back to UK... everything seems to b settled down..
i can still rmb last year i spent about one or two months to really settle all my stuff.. but now i juz need one or two weeks to settle down.. ya janice is rite.. this year we dun really need spend anytime on adapting this enviroment, this place is already on our finger tips.

but... UK.. this place.. is so familiar to me yet so strange to me... sometimes i seem to be so familiar with it but sometimes i just don feel that i belongs here..

From the first day since bvc commenced i started worried bout my ability, i doubt i can handle the course. i'm overwhelmed by anxiety From the first day.. i just so regret that i chose to come here and study for bvc.. things juz not goin on ritely.. there is a strong feelin of insecure! i was so depressed by the insecurity worried bout my course my finance n so on.. perhaps if i choose to stay in m'sia i dun have to go tru all these anxiety.

but yea... decision has already been made, other than be strong n strive tru all these miserable thing really can't think of any other good way out. sometimes life is juz like tat, it leads us along, kinda unpredictable and perhaps we will only learn when we were put in some desperate situation.

i m tryin hard to b positive... juz finger cross after this i will b a better person for myself n my family...

(lucky me stayin wif janice n hong.. if not it will b more depressive)

回家真好？！

2007-07-19T14:59:00.000+01:00

回到自己的家，感觉永远都是最好的。
喜欢那种熟悉的感觉，喜欢那种自然的感觉。
在英国的日子最想念的就是那种每当回到家就可和家人分享的时候。
在外国总是回到房间一个人感觉有一点点寂寞。
人总是这样，人多的时候向往个人空间。
人少时向往可以分享的时光。

感觉在英国一段日子后，反而害怕寂寞。
也许是尝试过所以害怕，也也许因为习惯一大班朋友总是成群结队，所以习惯了热闹。
所以说习惯有时真的很可怕，不是吗？

习惯了成群结队的我，今天就尝试独自弄visa 后一个人逛街。
真的好久没有一个人逛街了！
一个人的是侯，也许多了一份寂寞但同时也多了一份自由。
想走就走想停就停，想吃就吃想歇就歇，自由自在。
总觉得一个人走走的时候就是不断思考的时候。
所以当我会一个人旅行的时候就是当我想从新认识自己，寻找自己的时候。
也许是这样今天特别有闲情一个人看书，翻了翻鲁豫，蔡康永的书觉得还蛮有趣的
只是身上没有钱。唉。。。

坐上许久没有坐的马来西亚的巴士，感觉像一个旅客在感觉这个城市。
但是我比旅客更多了一份了解与熟悉。
为什么要特别标明马来西亚的巴士？
因为我们家的巴士很独特，这是我去了几个城市的结论。
（虽然不是去了很多城市）
没有一个城市的巴士像我们的metro bus or any other buses 会在每一个站叫喊巴士的路线。
也没有其他地方会有售票员在巴士上收钱和一直叫人往后堆。
别误会，我没有贬义和讽刺的意识。
如果我没有出国我真的很想批评，但也许回家后更可以感受那一份文化的不同。
有时感受一个国家的文化不一定要去著名的旅游胜地
在街上走走，搭搭巴士公共交通，看看街上的人
可能更可以感受他们的文化。

这一趟巴士之旅，刚好看见我中学的学生，虽然不认识他们但总觉得很熟悉。
听他们的交谈感觉自己好像刚离开学校不久，但算一算原来已经４年了，已经大学毕业了。
原来时间真的不留人，像我这样浪费光阴的人到头来还是没有进步，真感慨！
回家除了开心外也多了一个反思的空间。
　

last day in 304

2007-06-16T02:02:00.001+01:00

still rmb director wong used to have directed a famous movie called 2046. basically the story line starts from the room 2046... the leadin actor in 2046 was a writer at first he writes for newspaper but later he finds it hard to scraps a living, thus changed to narrate some erotic novel... when he first moved to hk he wanted to stay in room 2046 but the owner of the hostel said room 2046 was under renovation asked him to stay in 2047 first...

basically the movie 2046 got nothing to do wif 304( title of my blog)... but juz hope to bring out that each n every single room there is some own stories goin on... for me.. my story in UK starts from 304.

tonite is my last nitez stayin in 304 room 4... it's been 9 months since i first moved in this flat... now only i realised 9 months can b juz a twinkle of eyes... for me this room has all my memories in UK... this is the first time i leave my parent far away 13 hours flight from my family n stay alone wif other stangers... i'm glad i survived, in addition i live happily. tho not to say i have live my life to the max here... but at least i din creat much prob to myself... tho wat i have done in the pass is more than enuf to cause lotsa prob...

i got 5 flatmates livin in 304 n one of it is my fren foon, 2 are locals bristish jack n alex one is m'sian daniel n one is UN-austria/ china jan... well i should say our bond isn't tat tight especially jack n alex basically we juz manage to chit chat a bit if we meet in the kitchen.. other than tat we juz bz wif our own business... dun have much lapse among us... for daniel since we are m'sian so naturally we communicate more but yet still not really close coz we mix wif diff ppl, well Jan is one of the main character i would like to stress... Mr. Jan... an amazin ppl... sometimes i really wonder how come there is such a person survive in the earth so lazy!!!! i tot i m edi kinda lazy ppl n messy... but this flatmate of mine is superb!!! not juz lazy... he got this amazin power to mess up everythin u clean up in juz a few hours.. malimalihoom! gosh.. thus me n foon slowly gave up cleanin up de kitchen... aih... dissapointed.. n sometimes really get annoyed!!!!!!

but today we collaborate to clean up the kitchen... i found tat tho jan is good sometimes at least when time come he willing to do his part. n the good part of jan is he is not a fussy n stingy person... as we were allowed to use his oil n seasonin...

actually i think the best lesson that i have learnt in stayin wif other is being considering n understandin... we juz couldn't b too selfish n live in our own world... we need to learn how to communicate n try to accomodate other's need n learn to yield, isn't it so?! if can't fix thing out we need to communicate n try to find the solution.. not juz sittin down cursin or backstab others... some ppl juz bein too selfish...

hem... after tonitez... got to say bb to 304!
bb to 304's kitchen! =p

reminiscence

2007-06-11T20:07:00.000+01:00

time flies... n it really does!!!! (tho i dun wanna start wif such an ordinary not creative way, i really can't think of any words to decribe my feelin where time really flies juz when u twinkle ur eyes...

i have already finished my exam for 2 weeks... basically i juz have fun, sleep n waste my time for the two weeks... i edi been in UK for like 9 months... it's like a spark of light... 'spark' and now it comes to the end... n i can still vividly rmb the day when i first came... draggin my luggage wif all my strength to my new accomodation... it's a luxurious one...all of us was happy wif the accomodation... n we used the first two week to adapt to this brand new enviroment n atmosphere! wat a shame i din even suffer from jet-lag.. i even missed my breakfast on the flight...

i still rmb the first dinner that we had was vege n a big bowl of ABC... i can still rmb the taste of it... tat time it was a taste of home which made all of us on cloudnine... wat a bunch of easily contented girls...

then later our classes started we need to start concentrate on our work... n the weather changed too... which all of us was so not used to it at first... it gets darks at 4 evening... like 8 sth n we were affected emotionally... where there was one day... we sat down in my room n talked bout our feelin... a bit of homesick.. a bit of depressed... n this time i got sok's message from m'sia.. when i read the message i couldn't hold back my tears anymore... last time i can't understand wat's the feeling of loneliness... now i understand... sometimes when ur families n frens are far apart from u... there will b an urge of depression which is quenchless... the kind of feelin where u eager to c their face, talk to them or even hug them but u can't... i think this is the most miserable feeling... tat's why sometimes depart will let u think twice... u'll learn to cherish everything that u have now... u will appreciate n feel gratitude....

apart from this... i also learn how to appreciate the frienship that i built up here in uk... probably we juz used to b classmate, the thing we been tru wasn't tat much... our frienship wasn't tat deep.. but now i guess after stayin together n went tru so many happy n sad incident together, after laughin n workin hard in the lib together n walk tru the super chillin path back to our hall together... we have built up a strong bond... a really tight one...which i always consider myself as a lucky one as God always put someone nice around me to accompany me to go tru hard time... honestly if w/o them my life in UK will not b tat happy... will not b full of laughter... eventho now i look back to the picz i can have a taste of happiness i vividly could recall back our laughter which break the tranquility.... wat a bless..

i wanna thx ki for teachin me how to write a blog... if not i wouldn't noe wat have i done this 9 months... i wanna thx del for accompanyin me tru my sad time... i wanna thx janice for givin me a hand whenever i was so blurr , i wanna thx foon for takin good care of me... wanna thx orange n vv for bringin so much joy n laughter to us...

if i m still a small girl... i would like to dream n hope tat time will stop here, or thing will remain like tat n not goin to change... but this is the reality... thing will change... after the trip we may not have chance to cook n have dinner n chit chat till midnight, we may not do sth which others think silly or stupid... we may not b workin together till middle of the night in the lib... but i guess our friendship will remain tight...eventho i m like ki dislike startin a new life or meetin new ppl but watever it is in the comin future... i wish all my dear frens all de best... everything is in our heart... 在心中
thx for givin me such a memorable 9 months... thx.. so much!

白色風車的回憶

2007-05-28T17:40:00.000+01:00

有一天你告訴我你要揹我走到最後叫我不要回頭走到最後。
我緊緊的抱住你，說我不需要承諾。
（不是我不需要承諾，而是我知道承諾不會在現實中存在）
（又或許你需要再次勾起我的天真，不是相信你的承諾而是相信你）

所以我口是心非，說我若一個人會比較自由。

可能是懦弱，可能是害怕。
我就是不能心口如一

其實那一瞬間我渴望你緊緊的抱住我
告訴我你不懂我說什麼反正不會鬆手
能不能別想太多感受这真實的感覺

謝謝你讓我再一次勇往直前
我以为我已经被现实打败
谢谢你唤醒我内心沉睡的感受

瘋人瘋語

2007-05-22T15:25:00.000+01:00

很多時候當朋友求救幫忙分析問題與給予意見的時候，
我總是覺得他們已有答案，很多時候只是希望多一個人的同意。
我記得有一次我問一個朋友的意見的時候，
他只是告訴我做一個自己不會後悔的決定。
在那一刻我知道我應該做一個怎樣的選擇。
從此當我遇到問題的時候這就是我問自己的問題。

很多時候不是自己不會選擇，而是活在這個世界充滿太多的矛盾。
心裏想的與腦裏想的存在衝突。
簡單的說就是感性與理性的判斷存在的矛盾。
很多時候我們以爲我們不知道，其實我們只是不想面對。
其實世界是簡單的，就好像小的時候每樣東西都看似簡單
但長大后事情的變數越多，想法也開始複雜。
是對的，每個人都需要‘成長’沒有一個可以例外。
成長的過程我們學習不再任性，不再隨心所欲，不再暢所欲言。
成長的過程我們可能不見了童真，不見了感性，不見了分享
因爲我們學會了獨立。

其實很多東西是相對的，成長未必不好也未必很好
最重要的是當在夜深人靜的時候，靜靜思考的時候
你還知道你是誰，不知應該怎樣選擇的時候。
就問問自己的心，如果明天就是你活在這世界的最後一天，
你想做的又是怎麽呢？

a lesson to learn

2007-05-21T02:32:00.000+01:00

很多人說，當局者迷，旁觀者清
很多事情往往經歷的人不能客觀的分析。
我記得我最脆弱的時候，我又一位好朋友告訴我，
我們總是喜歡把自己設定一個完美的自己
幫自己設限一個底綫，一旦它被侵犯，
完美的自己就會破滅。
而我們就會開始責備自己，用盡所有的方法讓自己難受，
爲了的就是懲罰自己，我們開始覺得自己可恥
不希望面對但也抹滅不掉犯下的錯。

我的這位朋友不在意我犯的是什麽過錯，
他問了我，當我折磨我自己的時候問題解決的沒？
我當然知道問題還在，但那一刻我無法面對自己
他告訴了我，
你知不知道一個人之所已可以勇敢面對挫折與失敗
不是因爲他覺得自己是完美的
是因爲他覺得自己是不完美的
正是因爲認知自己的不完美，自己的不足，
才會勇敢的面對失敗，才會站起來，從而學習

反之，一個覺得自己不可以不完美的人
往往會是最脆弱的人
因爲他不能認知現實的自己
受到挫折只會責備自己的無能
根本無法面對與承擔問題

我要謝謝我的這位朋友，
啓發我原來我一直執著于一個過於理想的東西

其實換個角度，
人生的經歷多了一分，
對自己的認知也多了一份，
犯錯也未免不是一件壞事

謝謝我的朋友，讓我告訴我
爲何不嘗盡犯錯的甜美。

whisper how to be careless?! i wonder...

2007-04-05T01:29:00.000+01:00

too much wonder for tonitez... probably my soul noe i left my blog for too long.. thus keep inspiring me of sth to put down...

careless whisper?! wat an interesting one...
i noe whisper can b soft or tender... but wonder how a whisper to b careless?!

Time can never mend
the careless whispers of a good friend
to the heart and mind
ignorance is kind
there's no comfort in the truth
pain is all you'll find

but kinda like the previous verse,

I'm never gonna dance again
guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool

we always like to disguise ourselves,
manipulating our camouflage,
coz we juz believe in protection, defencing
at the end of the day, somehow we manage to cheat ourselves
congrats to ourselves, coz this mayb a tough task
but untill de time we realized we are merely a fool
too late to feel regret or depress

we juz live once, go for it, no regret
c'est la vie

crossin feeling~

2007-04-05T01:17:00.000+01:00

few days b4 were 1/4... b4 2003 april fool for me is juz an interestin day.. makin fun of others ;p
tho i always b the one who will b make fun of... anywayz this this not the point...
but since 2003, 1/4 bcome another important date for me... in memory of 哥哥... probably this person is so far yet so near... basically dun have much depression on this date... coz it's so far that u can't really notice his existence, thus won't have the kind of feelin of losin someone... but he is so near that u will kinda miss him when u c sth related to him , movie, music etc...
even now i think it's a shame for us to lose someone like him... aww...
i wanted to get all his movie collection...
ppl used to tell me good person always dies early... umm.. perhaps this stmt can b used for the talented as well...
well well... at least we still got lot's of his collection left to us --- priceless

in memoriam of 哥哥...

why?!!!!!

2007-03-17T01:14:00.000Z

awww~~~~
i really don understand y?!!!
y is this hapennin everytime?!!!
i really started dislike myself... because of this habitual sickness!!

hope u will come back to me pls....... pls!!!!!

sad sad nitez...

fuji

2007-02-28T22:57:00.000Z

i find myself so 'slow' as now only i discovered this song...
honestly i can't really understand the lyrics well..
kinda feel that it's describin the confusion of a relationship?! or a process of a relationship?!

anywayz... the lyrics itself is inspiring... with the melancholic melody... makin ppl feel confortable n meanwhile a bit blue..

富士山下
填詞：林夕
路雨偏似雪花　飲泣的你凍嗎
這風褸我給你磨到有襟花連調了職也不怕
怎麼始終牽掛苦心選中今天想車你回家
原諒我不再送花　傷口應要結疤
花瓣鋪滿心裡墳場才害怕
如若你非我不嫁　彼此終必火化
生一世等一天需要代價＊
誰都只得那雙手　靠擁抱亦難任（為）你擁有
要擁有必先懂失去怎接受　曾沿著雪路浪遊　
為何為好事淚流　誰能憑愛意要富士山私有　
何不把悲哀感覺　假設是來自你虛構　
試管裡找不到它染污眼眸　
前塵硬化像石頭　隨緣地拋下便逃走　
我絕不罕有　往街裡繞過一周　
我便化烏有＊
情人節不要說穿　只敢撫你髮端
這種姿態可會令你更心酸留在汽車裡取暖
應該怎麼規勸怎麼可以將手腕忍痛劃損
人活到幾歲算短　失戀只有更短
歸家需要幾里路誰能預算
忘掉我跟你恩怨　櫻花開了幾轉
東京之旅一早比一世遙遠

你還嫌不夠　我把這陳年風褸　送贈你解咒

wat's life a about?! do u noe where u are goin to?!

2007-02-24T00:54:00.000Z

there will be time in life where u are forced to make a choice, and u will be overwhelmed by confusion which path u wanna take?! we are not certain with our future, we worried to make a wrong decision and we afraid that we might regret in making a wrong decision...

i always being prompted this question ' if u were given a chance will u make the same decision?'

umm... say if i were given a chance to choose my degree course again will i make de same decision?! well.. my answer would b yes... coz it's all de decision tat time that have made the 'me' today... and it's the 'me' tat time who have made up de decision.. so even given 100 times i suppose the outcome will still b the same...

and thus... i will never feel regret to watever decision that i have made... coz if i din take a step forward and have a try... i will never noe whether i have made a correct choice or not.. nothing venture, nothing gain... life is about keep venturing... even tho u fall down and face any failure.. u have in fact gain a lot thru de process... i will say human is superior as we noe how to learn from our mistake... we gain our experience... here comes our intelligence...

i keep reminding myself.. nothing venture nothing gain... don't b afraid of venturing... need to be brave n explore ^^

perhaps we may not noe where we are heading to... we may not noe our final destination... but this is life... isn't it?! we always in the process of finding our path.. but we need to noe wat's we hoping for... i think i will never live happily without faith without hope....

i m glad who i m... i'm who i m bcoz of my lovely family... becoz of my lovely frenz...

lovin u ;p

sweet image grabbed from jia mei...

wish everyone is showered with love n love others around u ...

' being deeply love by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage'

valentine's

2007-02-20T16:29:00.001Z

i noe valentine's has been one week b4... but b4 this i really dun noe wat to jot down..
not that nothin to jot down but wonder how m i goin to write it...

for me every year valentine's it's a bit weird.. coz i really dun noe how to spend this day...
tho i had two relationship b4 but neither one been tru valentine's ..thus this day is always strange to me.. it's like another ordinary day for me.. tho deep inside my heart i wish to spend it wif someone special.. but every year i end up goin tru it alone... or sometimes better wif frenz..

i always come across some debate among some frenz is valentine's day a true romantic day or izzit juz a commercial crap?!

for me... i will prefer to b more naive choose to believe the former one.. tho i noe probably it may b used for commercial purposes... but it actually depends on how the couple wish to spend this special day.. well i dun noe the history of valentine's day thus dunno how come there will b such a day in our calendar... for me.. valentine's is a special day to express love to each other.. i suppose this is the most traditional n accepted reason... sweet & simple... not necessary need a big bouquet or nice present... but merely a nice card.. writin down all the words that u wish to tell he/she sincerely would be really sweet n romantic...

I always tell myself it's really not easy in this world to find someone that u love n in return love u too... tat's y if u found it... u got to appreciate it.. dun miss it or give up easily... perhaps there will b lot's of barrier in the first place... but if two of them can overcome all the obstacles n still trust n love each other.. perhaps.. they have found their true love...

perhaps i m really too naive or conservative.. probably ppl will b laughin at me havin such a simple thinkin.... but i really wish to have a relationship which is really pure... at the age of 22 i still believe there will b true love.. coz i believe thing will happen to those who believe in it =p
even tho it really doesn't happen to me ... i still believe that it existed.. at least it will happen on others... n i will feel really happy for those ppl ( especially it happens to my frens)

for me 14/2/07....surprisingly... this year unlike the previous years... i had a really nice n sweet valentine's tho dun have candle light dinner no big bouquet but receiving a nice card n havin dinner wif him was already very contented for me.... i can feel his sincerity... n i guess i couldn't deny i m fond of too... well... it's still too early to say anything now... but at least this is a good start i suppose....

aww,,,, it snows at last ;p

2007-02-08T03:19:00.000Z

aww... can't believe this... finally we wait till it snows... tho all of us really wish to c snowin.. lookin the snow flakes flyin in de sky but we always dun have de chance to really c it wif our own eyes... coz they said bristol normally will not snow....

i think today is really a happy day for me ;p
first of all del made my day in de afternoon... n juz now we went out to hang around to see the sky snowin... ;p
i called mummy tellin her that it's snowin over here now.. mummy was so excited askin me to take some picz n send to her ... mummy of coz i will ;) muacks...

expect for the unexpected it's really jovial ... *cheers*
wat a nitez in Bristol ;p

at least there is some nice music...

2007-01-29T12:06:00.000Z

hem.... blue blue days...
probaby it's bcoz of fear of losing...

but at least now there is some nice voice accompanyin... somehow these voices kind of uplift me... encouragin..giving me faith..

music got this kinda strength... creating miracle..

-khim

thx god =p

2007-01-26T16:18:00.000Z

for the past few weeks i really thought that y i m so bad luck?! y i need to encounter these kind of unluckily circumstances?! i kept blaming.. y good stuff won't come to me?! kept grumblin n mumbling.. sayin how unlucky i m...

but this moment.. i really think that i m such a lucky gal... really thx God for all that i have now... i sincerely appreciate it..

i m a gal that grown in greenhouse.. i m carefully taken up by my lovely mummy, very protected... i dun have a clue how cruel or how difficult to scrape a living in the reality world.. i assumed that everything will b goin on smooth... as i always think naively that i will never encounter sth bad... that's y sometimes when i faced some little tiny obstacles i b strugling and got depressed easily...
my life has been too good n too easy... making me feel difficult to cross over tiny barriers...

life can be totally different and changed at the next moment... i realized it when my boss turned around n accused me as thief.. at that moment i really think that i have come to the harshest thing in my life ( tryin to be sarcastic to myself ...so u noe how protected i m now)

but this moment i can understand... wat does it means life is fragile... not merely losing 200 quids n being accused... this is nothing compare to those who are fighting very hard to survive!!

i come to realise... life can be totally diffirent in juz one second when i was told by my fren that she got a fren who needs to breath by relyin on the support machine after involvin in an accident in USA few days ago n none of her frens noe how she is now coz she is in USA...
wat is life?
unpredictable.
fragile.
but u will b really touched when u c the inner streght of a human being, fighting to survive..
u will b touched when everyone beside is giving full support, caring n encouragement...

i suppose this makes life precious n full of dignity.. isn't it deserving the highest respect?!!! tat's love that makes the whole world a better place.. isn't it?!

my fren was worried bout me too... coz she said i m now far from her as well.. she keeps remindin me to take care of myself.. n i said i promise i will coz i dun wan ppl who cares bout me to worried bout me...eventho i noe i m a careless, unsophisticated silly little gal... but i think i should b able to keep my promise..

pray for huey ching....

bufday & new year eve!!!

2007-01-22T17:55:00.000Z

hey... hope i still rmb wat happened on the 31/12/2006.. sometimes memory juz dun serve well.. hehe

well....yea... it's another trip to LONDON again!! ahahahaha...
me, ki, foon n vv decided to go london to countdown for 2007 ;p isn't it cool?!
normally it takes 2 1/2 hours to reach london... but this day it took us 4 hours... OMG... my head was really dizzy... coz i juz can't stay too long in the bus i dunno y...plus MR vv dun let me sleep along de way... bad!!!

the first thing that we goin to do when we reached london was head to china town =p wat else? lookin for food!! n buy my beloved 'dan tat' ^^
again.. we went to the same restaurant that we have been to on christmas eve.. the greatest diff today is that the restaurant was full n ppl keep comin.. wuao!

rite... after dinner...t ime to head to london eye.. coz we afraid we can't get a good place to c the fireworks ... so we slowly walked to forget wat street is it.. which specially for spectators to watch the fireworks.... along the way we saw a lot of police standing everywhere... then we start comparing the police here those in m'sia (tryin to b sarcastic ;p)

well... when we reached the street wuao... it was really crowded.. but luckily we still able to find a nice place =p then vv n foon said wanna go to washroom... ok.. then left me n ki... waiting for them there... but we waited for one hour vv n foon still haven't come back... we suspected sth must b wrong here... then we called vv.. (it is really difficult to reach them that time) VV said they were not allowed to enter the street anymore... coz the police said it was edi full inside no more oursider is allowed to enter!! then we were like? HUH?! how come?! so now.. wat should we do?! SIENz.... if we can't countdown together?! meaningless le...

but we can't do anything.... aiks... so we end up countdownin in diff places..aiks!
me n ki able to watch live fireworks but pity vv n foon juz can look at the big screen... aihhh

After countdownin... n able to meet each other... we minger around london street... taking picz ;p untill 3.30 a.m we can't stand the cold n tireness anymore... we try to find any restaurant still open in such a time n try to get into it... at least there is a place to sit.. n it will not b tat cold...
we can't c any restaurant open... then we said probably we can try out luck in china town probably the chinese restaurant will open till a bit late!!
BINGO!!! u are rite... there were some restaurant still open in 4 a.m. so u noe.. who is better in bussiness mind yahaha...
so we quickly get into the restaurant n sit untill it closed hehe ;p
then we need to look for another place for shade...coz it was rainin n was freakin cold out there... thus we found one amusement.. which will open till 6 in the mornin =p here.. vv taught us how to play pool hehe... cool experience ;p
we really stay till it close haha.. then we got back to victoria station to catch our coach... at first thought foon will need to wait for the next coach all alone... but luckily there is still some seat available.. so four of us went back to bristol safe n sound ;p

Christmas d@y + Boxing day

2006-12-29T00:02:00.000Z

coz we din manage to get a job in during Christmas time... thus me n del decided to go london on Christmas in order to stay back till boxing day then we may have a chance to see how's it goin on in london on boxing day!!!!
so we departed on 24/12 to london in de morning... when we reached london... George(del's uncle) straight away fetched us to cina town for lunch =p here we started exploring all those restaurant... wanted to go misato again but unfortunately misato was closed on this day... thus entered a chinese restaurant... which we think is very cheap n del said de food is good as well... the happiest things that happens on this day was that i managed to buy myself a 'dan tat' =p MY dan tat i have been waiting for it for such a long time edi =p yummy yummy^^
since george said later wanna steambot wif us.. thus we bought quite a lot of stuff for dinner...
n george was explainin the attraction in london while fetchin us back... n i come to realise that london bridge is actually not an attraction coz there is nothing special...but come to know that the most beautiful n famous bridge the tower bridge... it's really breathtaking!!! like goin into fairy tale's world ^^
well... the whole christmas eve n christmas we stayed in george's house as george was so romantic... decided to go paris wif his gf out of the blue... so.. four of us juz stay in his house.. 24/12 nitez... we made a most simple steambot but it is a very delicious one i will say ;p n four of us juz syok syok sendiri in the kitchen ^^
well... here come the boxing day... aiks... it is not as cheap as people said... juz normal sales.. we accompanied del to Gucci stall but unfortunately we can't manage to get into it coz the queqe is juz too long thus we give up.. n loitered around everywhere...it is kind of a great experience to spend a day in london on boxing day coz i never saw so many people walkin n shoppin on the street b4... it was really scary..
p.s the ice-cream waffle that me, ki n del had in london is really ZHeng ;p
yummy yummy!!

ScOtl@nd Trip

2006-12-20T18:24:00.000Z

i juz received a call from delonia... opps.. wat a good news i got from her.. she missed her coach to london!!! gosh.. wat to do now?! i asked her to come to bristol to take the catch coach!! luckily she still able to made it.. but when we met up.. she kept complainin tat today is a bad day for her!! n yes i agreed wif her.. tat day is juz not her day... anywayz we had a great jap dinner in london!! *misato* ZHENG!!!
rite... we din really sleep in london coz we need to get up at 5 sth in order to check in at de airport!! it's a chill mornin.. n i was pretty worried how if scotland were to b much more colder than this?! aiks....
well.... we are goin wif del's frens for this scotland trip.. travis, v.va, yan n so on!!

when i first stepped out from de airport... i was pretty released coz hem... it is not as chill as i tot... phew~ then when i reached our hostel... i was like ' del is this really our accomodation?!' coz it's very beautiful out there.. n it's really cheap.. so i was wonderin...anyway.. after we dropped out luggage in de hostel.. we straight away explored Edinburgh city... gosh.. this is really a nice place..it's very different from de city as in UK (like i have been to a lot of places in uk =p) it's like kind of old city wif lot's of old building..all de buildin seems like a small castle.. n it all very tidy built.. not scatter here n there like Kl aha! it's a lovely city n i heard bout this from lot's a ppl edi =p
the only imperfect for this trip is tat we din enter de Edinburgh castle we juz manage to take some pic outside!! wat a waste.. such a golden opportunity..aiks!!!! the scene is exhilarating!!!!
after a few hours walk explorin in de city... everyone is so tired... wanna go back but me, del n travis thought it will b a waste if u come all over here to sleep in hotel.. since it's still early we decided to further explore... we came to a pub n ordered some drinks.. sit down n chit chat.... then we further hang around in de city... till 2 a.m... n gosh!! we missed the bus... n thus we need to wait for another hour for the next bus... gosh u can't imagine.. how cold is it that time! we were shivering... n forced to wait coz we dunno de way home =( the best part is after we got up de bus we missed de station to get down!!!!!!!!!! BRILLIANT!
then we forced to walk along a small path w/o street light.. we were freakin worried... coz it's dark.. it's cold... it's windy!!! n de whole area is very quiet n wif those trees surrounded.. wat a scary experience we had... but when we looked up de sky... wuao~~~ wat a beautiful one.. stars were hangin all over de sky but unfortunately i m not good astrology..anywayz for an ordinaary gal.. it's a beautiful scene.. at least it reduce my fear.. ahaha... but i felt sorry for travis coz he had lost his beloved 'chicken feather' when we walked back...35 pounds.. aiks...
rite.... we slept around 4 n need to wake up around 7 sth.. to go for a day trip!!
n yea.. me n del end up sleepin on de bus.. we wanted to appreciate de beauty of outskirt area in edinburgh but our eyes refuse to open...so we missed out a lot of beautiful scene..but we still manage to take a lot of picz =p yippie!!! n we learnt some scotland ascent in this day trip as well =p loch not lake!!! aha =p
the best part of the whole trip!! *super wan kat haunted trip* super boring... this is the only haunted trip i got n also de most boring one!! wat a joke... everyone was bored till death.merely listened to de speaker talkin bout de historical stuff!!! OMG!!! n this silly haunted trip ends my journey in endinburgh!!
well this is not yet the end of my trip ^^ the next station!! glasgow city!! the biggest city in scotland!!! compare to edinburgh.. this is not really a beautiful place.. it's more sophisticated.. more industrialize.. this nite we jalan jalan cari makan in this city... then we came to notice this cafe.. de price is pretty reasonable n de food is pretty temptin as well thus we decided to eat there!!!!!
but to our surprise... de price was not de same as shown outside... n we waited for 1 hour long... everyone was annoyed... n when de food was served... we burst into laughter when we saw del's dinner!!! mix grill!! wat a joke...juz two little tiny bacon n two little tiny steak n lamb.. n a huge tomato wif it... ahahaha!! n it cost like 11 pounds... del was really really annoyed n a bit 無奈 she really dunno how to react when she saw her mix grill... n we kept laughin at her!!!aha..poor del...
well forgot to mention this.. we had our tradisional scottish lunch in glasgow-Blas... mix platters =p wat a delicious n satisfied lunch we had in this cafe!!! yummy yummy!!!! got haggis, mushroom wif bailey, haddock pies, lamb cassarole, beef potato pies gosh isn't it sound temptin =p my favourite is haddock pie!!!!!!!
our day in scotland!! we went to transport museum =p kelvinglove art gallery n musuem =p as usual took lot's of picz =p we dun have enuf time to minger around in de art gallery...if not there is really a lot of stuff to b explored =p
our last lunch in glasgow...super delicous korean food =p to our surprise..we can get such a great korean food in scotland!! coz it's cooked by korean ppl ^^
my chicken fry nian gao is super super can't describeable delicious =p same as ki's fried sotong!!! i will rate it 5 stars!!! zheng! zheng! zheng!
well... yea time flies especially happy time....it's a bit 遺憾 that we n del's frens juz start to know each other n need to depart edi!! but anywayz.. really glad to know them n spent a four days three nitez trip wif all of them =p
this is my first trip in UK hopefully there is much more trip yet to come =p in order to add more content in my life.. ^^ =p three gals bein caught in scotland =(

thx to all my buddies =p

2006-12-10T03:06:00.000Z

actually i m very tired after back from cardiff... but all my friends keep sayin wanna go out n have dinner today coz orange goin to depart on monday.... so i faster dress up after got back to my lovely room ;p
who knows?! ahahaha...

we are not goin to have dinner out in the city but in orange's kitchen!!!
gosh.. they prepared a great seafood dinner for me =p i was so touched juz couldn't describe the feelin.. coz normally.. when u do this to ur frenz u will feel fun but if u are the so called 'leadin role' u will feel a bit weird.. n dun really noe how to react at first...

then i come to noe they edi planned for this for a long time... n especially on this day they have done a lot of stuff bcoz of givin me such a surprise party!!!
thx orange n william for wakin up early in de mornin buyin groceries, sacrificing ur assignment time doin all the preparation... cookin so hard for the delicious seafood dinner( it's all my favourite!!! yummy yunmmy!! sotong, crabs, lobster =p) really thx... thx ki, foon n janice.. acting so hard to keep this secret n everything that u have done =p

though it's an early celebration but it is a sweet n memorable one =p
i really do appreciate wat u guys did to me.. though the time that we know each other isn't long but u guys willing to sacrifice so much in order to make me a surprise party for me.. other than thx i really dunno wat to say to all my dear buddies =p

i understand our happy moment over UK is not really much thus i will seize every single moment we been tru here!!!

** i wish our friendship will start here n keep forever n ever ;p**
muackz =p

untitle

2006-12-07T19:01:00.000Z

lazy to think of one title..

anywayz.. been a long time not updating myself... assignment days has passed.. kind of enterin a holiday mood.. but i bit worried of myself as well... lookin back i think that i m not copin well wif my course... especially company.. i think i need to plan for my holidays .. if not sure i will end up wastin up all my hols...

been here for 2 months... i kept thinking that time flies n soon probably another twist of eyes.. i need to packed myself n prepare to go back m'sia... not to say that i love this place but i think i will b missin the life i m been tru here.. mayb i m not a typical city gal.... i can manage the boredom here....tho unlike m'sia we can easily go out hang around wif frenz in watever mamak stall, redbox, movie etc n etc... i would say UK is a totally diff lifestyle... it's more relaxin... comfortable.. n self discipline in some sense...

i m glad that i m not livin in the city thus can escape from the business of city... i dun like city coz its always jam, polluted, cover wif nuisance...

wat i like is every mornin.... when i m walkin to class(ignore when i was late time) i walk tru de path.. wif green grasses n trees bside.. takin my time walkin slowly... breathin in de fresh air... n enjoyin my brunch bar.. listenin to my mp3... i noe this is the greatest moment i would ever had...at this time i edi felt that i m such a lucky gal.. being given such an opportunity to explore myself..

i always thinkin of havin a campus life... i envy my frends studyin in uni havin their colourful uni life.. unlike mine.. a boring n meaningless college life.. i understand that i have missed a lot... so i wish to seize the chance now...enjoyin every single moment i have over here... even tho it is really damn freakin cold here.. silly wind blowin as mad as hatter...i will still appreciate the fact that me being here...

Dream away
i m in my dream
but everything seems so real
juz dream away~

Assign Dayzz

2006-11-30T02:41:00.000Z

been a long time not updating..coz recently there really nothing worth bloggin.. basically juz rushin for assignments.. been weeks i always stay up till late nitez and now it has become a norm for me to sleep after 3... aiks....

i noe all my buddies in sg, m'sia,taiwan.. were fighting like i m here ....
thus i wanna tell everyone ....all my dear pals... FIGHTING FIGHTING!! dun give up!! missin u guys.. missin the days we were studyin together!!

i juz got one more to go!!!!!! yeah~~~~~~
after this.. hehehe... it's MY TIME! CoOl~~

Naku Penda~

2006-11-18T21:04:00.000Z

come across beyond's songs(thx v v =p)... a sudden feeling strike on me!
i missed wong ga kui's voice very much....his voice always got a special power...
such a talented guy... perhaps.. this world is juz too chaotic for him..tat's y he left so early... aiks..

got a feelin that i have missed a lot of stuff, i din cherish wat i had...
愛得太遲....

amani, naku penda naku penda we we, tunataa we we
(和平，我愛你 , 我們需要你)

~love ppl around us.. love our world~

self control + self reflection!!!

2006-11-15T02:27:00.000Z

been days i ate hoggishly...OMG!!!! i noe i m goin to get fat n so on but i juz couldn't control myself.. i was full but juz the feel like eatin..anything!!!!
so plan 1. self control n more exercise!!no supper no junk food(except chocolate)

always rushing for last minute work!!! stay up till 5.30 in the morning to finish up EU seminar aiks.. finally the outcome is predictable.. not good enuf!!!
so plan 2. revise work in advance!!! no more last minute work!!! especially for the coming assignments!!!!!!!!

2 resolution~ fighting!!!!
;p

thoughtz

2006-11-12T16:28:00.000Z

ppl always tends to complain about their life...
but we din realize that the greatest things may juz be around us..
dun b so fastidious bout our life..
be always full of gratitude..
coz life is short n unpredictable...
we should seize every single moment we have!

Frid@y dinnerz

2006-11-11T14:03:00.000Z

yesterday... ying2 n liam2 invited us to have dinner with them ;p
b4 this we went to the chinese supermarket to buy all the necessary ingredients!
wuao!! there's really a lot of stuff sold in the chinese supermarket =p
happily saw all my 'tong yun', sotong, chilies etc. in the shop yippie!!
one thing i really wanna comment is the bus really makin me sick everytime!! everytime i sit on the bus i feel like thrownin up aiks!!!
well... after all.. all of us enjoyed the dinner very much ;p
full untill wanna thrown up...^^
somemore got dessert served OMG!!! but ha... the dessert a bit hangus edi! aha!

okie the comin days..... muz b very focus edi!!!! fighting fighting!!!

ouR Princess~~

2006-11-05T21:57:00.000Z

erm!!!! all of us was very excited as to emmeline's visit!! we have been missin her for a long long time!!!
well as usual... emmeline is still very pretty n happy!! but probably of the travellin sickness... she looked so tired!! but we really got shock as... emmeline is much more skinny than she was in KL!! really make us very worried bout her!!!

well... we got lot's of things to share wif tat's y we keep chit-chatin n we even got late to our bon fire which we planned to take emmeline to!! thus when we reached the bon fire.... we missed the 'fire'!!! oh gosh!! WANKATIN again!! poor emmeline suffered again in the bus!!

IF u think this is the end of the day or story then u are so wrong!! yahaha!!
we have another surprise party for emmeline ;p which was suggested by Orange ! n thx to orange n william for makin us fruits fondue!! yummy yummy so nice!!! orange pls... dun make so many chocolate stuff for us anymore! beside the chocolate cake was nice as well (can't stop eatin it OMG!!)

we really enjoyed our nite with emmeline n took a lots of picz wif emmeline which i think it is still not enuf!!!!
WE WILL B MISSIN U VERY MUCH EMMELINE ;p

Hospital D@yz

2006-11-03T23:35:00.000Z

okie... our 'honey' foon... is really very weak!! n keep comin up with diff variety of sickness aha... head, ears, stomach... omg! we as friends also feel so bad on behalf of her coz those sickness juz can't leave her alone!!! aiks.... sickness pls go off from all of us!!! we wan to b healthy in order to survive in this winter! superb cool out there now!! freezin man!

after the midnight visit to frenchay AnE (which 3 of us really think it is a bit crazy..1a.m n it's freakin cold outside).. today we need to bring our patient to st michael ENT...

after a tiring uphill walkin ...finally we came to our destination-st Michael!!!! PHEW~
but... this muz b kiddin.. the clinic is closed today?! n emergency not to b entertained here?! this muz b crazy... 3 of us juz now were crawlin up the hill usin all our energy... n we couldn't get treated here?! gosh!!!!
anyway... we still walked back to BRI's AnE... luckily... at least over here.. foon's prob was being treated even tho not by a doc but at least now we got some clue wat's goin on wif foon's ears n how to cure it...

then we saw this beautiful full moon hangin over the sky .. i do think the whole view at that time was fascinating... thus takin down this picz!

the moon it's like a spot light hanging over broadmead centre...
the moon over here might b fascinating but i missed m'sia's moon more^^

it's been a tiring day for me coz after havin my dinner... i went for badminton with janice... n both of us really do think that we are a bit saisui tonitez... ^^

sullen n gloomy

2006-11-01T22:38:00.000Z

today is a sunny day... but i dun noe y deep inside my heart i got this strange feelin.. come across michael buble's HOME ~ makin me more moody... there is really no particular reason tat make me feel so blue... but i do really miss my HOME~~

HOME
michael bubble
Another summer dayHas come and gone away
In Paris or Rome
But I wanna go homeMmmmmmmm
May be surrounded byA million people
IStill feel all alone
Just wanna go home....

sok texted me... my tears were drippin when i was readin her message... i m missin u a lot as well... not only sok.. but all my frens.... missin all of u heaps!!

I m feelin blue, lost without a clue.. but i m strivin to find my way...
although hope is frail, it's hard to kill...

RioT in London!!

2006-10-30T12:45:00.000Z

gosh.. i was late again.. aiks!!
but luckily we din miss the bus phew~~
since i din sleep tight yesterday nitez i straight away fell asleep on the bus!

well when we reached LONDON.. to my surprise.. i really think london is somehow same as my hometown-- KL!! the road, the constuction are pretty similar juz the buildin is different.. anywayz... At first foon was pretty worried that will we b arrested in the riot?! but i juz told her.. we will c how n respond accordinly.. so when we went there n we saw a whole bunch of students shoutin n yellin on the street we were pretty astonished!! as this is our first time to attend a riot! but we know the demo in UK is legal so should b okie.. ( as in m'sia demo is considered illegal)

basically we din carry anythin.. juz followin our uni's representative, walk n walk n walk!! there is this french guy- zed kept encouragin us to shout..f..k them!! aha...( their slogan is actually fight back) of coz we din! aha... another funny part is that there was a lot of camera n video along the street.. reporter n so on kept takin picz... whenever the camera was to headin us.. we juz turned around aha..as we dun wan to b on the newspaper.. aha!! silly tho..

so basically juz walk n walk n walk... n the student kept shouting out their slogan e.g: 'wat do we want? free edu!! when do we want it? NOW!! n 'education is a right, is a right, not a privilege!' then we came to this square where all the participants sat down n have their lunch n gathered together.. ppl starts givin out speech n so on for 2 hours.. the riot was ended... then we went up to our coach n went back!! (foon saw one youngster bein arrested by the police)

the conclusion that i will make after attendin the demo... is whether this kind of demo is considered effective or not?! well.. as a welfare state, it is right to say that the ppl in UK should enjoy the right of havin free education!! but i think the prob is pretty similar as the malays in my own home country.. the whole idea of givin free education is to help up the ppl but it seems like ppl enjoyin this right don't really noe how to appreciate it!! even abuse this right!!
i got a little feelin that students attendin the riot don really interested in the matter of free education basically they juz attendin it for fun... perhaps i m wrong in judgin them in such a way but.. when they are blamin for their government shall they themselves introspect whether they really have appreciated wat they have now?! well i do think that the students have abuse the system to a large extent...they have money to spend on drinks,drugs,entertainments n so on y not on education?! but they are also some portion of ppl really genuinely need the help of the government as in edu!!!! hopefully UK government will come out with a brilliant solution as in strikin n balance....

Surprise bufday AGAIN-----> Janice's bufday!!!

2006-10-30T12:28:00.000Z

well.... today is 28/10... janice's bufday falls on 29/10.. but we planned to make her a potluck party today.. it's saturday mornin i felt so sleepy as yesterday i slept around 5 a.m but i need to wake up in the early sat mornin (tho it is not really early juz i couldn't wake up!)
well we decided to make 'ginger n garlic chicken' n 'sweet n sour pork' for the potluck ;p we start our cookin around 2 sth.. cut, chop n so on... whilst foon n ki was preparin for stuff to cook... i was bz doin the decorative stuff.. we sticked "CHINESE POTLUCK~ janice's 21st heppy bufday!! " n cute COW!! coz janice was borned in the year of cow ;p

after finished all the decorative stuff.. i went to have a nap for an hour coz i couldn't stand any longer... when i woke up ki n foon was cookin.. then only i helped up a bit.. thx to ki n foon =p

okie... on the other side.. janice kept askin me to open the door to let her in..n i kept findin excuse not to open the door.. ^^ ( later on janice knew sth was goin on as i dun allow her to enter) well the delay is coz our 'bosses' orange n william haven't finished their dishes but this was forgiven by all of us as they brought us our favorite ^^ -----> TOM YAM!!!!!!! omg!! this is really great...i couldn't deny that i m a tomyam frenzier!! orange loved our 'sweet n sour pork' as well hehe.. it's foon's secret recipe!!

well...after cuttin cake n stuff.. we gathered together n played this game called the murderer!!! it's an awesome game!! all of us love this game after playin for a few rounds... ki was a cunnin murderer!!!! aha.. anywayz.. we need to go to bed early as we need to go for riot in london tomolo in the early mornin again aha!

JANICE~~ hope u had a nice 21st bufd@Y !!!

overslept...

2006-10-27T01:12:00.000+01:00

aww... i was late to my IT tutorial Again... yea.. is again... coz i overslept today (i couldn't find the correct venue for the previous tut) actually i had set alarm but i juz ignored it n back to sleep...

after dinner.. we were discussin bout the comin halloween^^ got very excited for the comin halloween.. hem.. we were discussin wat we planed to mimic..witch? ghost? zombie? dracula? then ki said she wanna mimic as a witch then she asked me to mimic a pregnant lady aha! (coz cecilia the hk artist done it b4) first i said okie... then later foon said very 'ceh' hem... then i think better dun do it... so probably will try to make up as a red devil ;p aha... then janice wanna b pure white ghost... n foon still haven't come up will a complete idea coz first she said wanna b witch suddenly witch+dracula.. later on wanna make up as sth in green... aha..keep comin out with new ideas... we will only know not untill tues!!

HALLOWEEN FRENZY~~~

Badminton ^^

2006-10-25T21:37:00.001+01:00

after comin back from student ambassador trainin i staright away went back n slept for 2 hours..coz later i need to go for badminton!! hehe.. at first we planned to go to yoga first then continue with badminton... but ..too tired.. so decided to drop yoga..
it's been long long time i din hold my racquet.... since we are damn free after comin to UK, we decided to sign up for some exercise( in order to give us more excuse to eat our Favourite food ^^ chocolate ) k.. so eventho it was rainin outside... we still went for our badminton session!
yea tho we are not expert in badminton... but we really have fun =p
we found out that ki uses left hand to play badminton.. so weird!! ahahaha...
sorry ki.. i din deliberately smash the ball towards u....
i really had fun there.. but after tat when we were havin dinner in my flat..someone really makin me mad!! argh... feel like killin him!!! anywayz .... small little kiddo... aiks!

F@lse ALARM!!!!!!!!!! gosh!

2006-10-23T13:22:00.000+01:00

OMG this muz b kiddin...it's 5 in the morning.. the fire alarm kept ringin.. n i was like wat the hell is goin on.. at first i din bother bout it.. coz i tot it's like kind of testin goin on.. thus hoppin it to stop for awhile (it always happen).. but it din't STOP.. n i heard my flatmates was yellin/talkin... then i noe.. i NEED to go.. arrghhh.... but i m so damn sleepy..
well... yea... everyone from our block came down.. it's really superb freakin cold outside!
especially ki.. she was shivering.. n foon wanna go to washroom...thus.. we called up doris to get into her flat... but it's 5.. we really felt so sorry to wake her up.. aiks. but no other ways...
then only we got to know it's false alarm!!!! some idiot juz purposely spray sth into the alarm n set on the alarm!! isn't this kind of ppl stupid!! it's 5 in mornin, they got nothing better to do! I still got class at 9.30 arrghh but i couldn't get back to sleep end up tossin on my bed Again.. and missed my company class coz I overslept!! aiks. feel like killin the contemptible asshole! arrghh..

sunday nitez

2006-10-23T01:52:00.000+01:00

many ppl asked me whether will i b homesickin in UK.... my answer to it is not yet.. i think time has come that i started to feel a bit moody for it... especially after watchin trimmin... i miss my dear mummy n my fei cai di!! yea.. but still i m not depressed by this.. coz i noe.. it's time for me to learn how to get independent, time for me to c how far i can go... i really dun mind to venture.. in fact this is wat i wanna do now.. juz hopefully all my dear families n frenz are in the pink of health ;p
well basically livin abroad gives me more opportunity to introspect, sittin down and thinkin where i should b heading to, in fact i m pretty happy with my life now.... thx to my mummy givin me such an opportunity.. miss ya!
yea.. life is fragile, learn to appreciate....

end up shoppin Ag@in!! X shopaholic!

2006-10-22T13:20:00.000+01:00

okay i really need to stop shoppin edi!!! well today 21/10 we planned to go to the city to give out our CV for Christmas vacancy!! but today foon got sick so she needs to rest at home... so only me , ki, n janice goin...
well the first thing we did in the city is to shop in a boots shop~~ really a cool distraction! at first we saw sth like this ' two pairs in one pairs price' hem.. later when we got in the shop we found out that ' if u can't find two, get one in half price!' OMG.. after seein this all of us is like out of our mind.. start searchin n lookin n tryin all the way round... yeap.. u are rite.. end up everyone got one pairs!! haha
ok ok we din forget our main objective- applyin for christmas vacancy.. we went to next, mall galleries, debenham, primark so on... but in debenham n primark again we bein distracted...aiks... ahaha then i told ki we should stop this if not we really bcome shopaholic.. ki asked me isn't she a bit serious compare to kl time?! my answer is..erm... yea... ahahahaha!!
so ki... we really need to save out $$ yea!! fighting!!

student Ambassador

2006-10-22T13:14:00.001+01:00

well... it's de day to work in the S@turday morning some more slept late last nitez.. anyway this will not stop me to go for my work..hehe..
well i was assigned to 'student village tour' which i need to bring the parents n the student to visit our new accomodation- student village(which i currently stay ^^) well i myself forgot how many times i go tru n flow from the faculty to student village... i juz noe the whole day i have been walkin n walkin n explainin the same stuff to the parents n their children.. but it's a great experience! eventually i love this job =p coz i can interact with ppl over here n the most important thing is that this job has a GOOD pay =p lov it!!

karaokin

2006-10-22T13:04:00.000+01:00

well this is the first job i got in UK - student Ambassador...
it's a friday nitez.. all of us still haven't slept.. chit-chattin n drinkin in the kitchen.. juz got back from escape.. coz there is a karaoke session goin on! so all of us accompanyin foon to have a look how's the karaoke over here.. we encouraged foon to sing in the karaoke.. at first foon dun wan coz she wasn't ready for it... but we keep on liftin her sayin that we will be standin out there n cheer for her... then foon asked me to stand bside her in order for her to release her anxiety.. i said NO PROB!! haha.. then later.. i din coz me myself felt scared..coz it's superb weird to stand beside her doin nothin.. anywayz foon i did stand in front n cheered for u n sang wif u as well! one of the 'guai lo' come beside me n told me that Foon is very good =p cool... isn't it!!!
okay... that's y we hang up till late nitez n all of us slept around 3!! but the prob is we need to wake up at 7 sth the next day in order to work!!!

none

2006-10-08T15:30:00.000+01:00

sometimes when i recall back to my childhood... i vividly rmb that i hope to grow up faster... then i can do watever i wan.. i will have absolutely freedom..
but recently i really refuse to grow up... especially the time i went for my attachment.. everytime when i m thinkin after 2 more years i need to think or act like those 'adults' i find it horrifyin... coz as an adult no longer can do wat u wan, an adult is merely doin wat u should do... isn't this horriyin enuf?!

U have to learn to follow your Heart n not merely following your brain!

thanks to desmond, i think u remind me sth that i have nearly forgot!

deplorableness~

2006-10-07T02:28:00.000+01:00

如果今天将失去眼前的一切，剩下清风两袖也不计

probably i really need to learn how to appreciate what i have now!
i will only realise the importance once i lost it ever......
i think this is the worst feelin that i will ever encounter...

KI's bufd@y--

2006-10-06T11:21:00.000+01:00

well yesterday 5/10 is Ki's 22nd bufday but sadly we can't celebrate with her.. coz this is prohibited by her mother..haha.. anyway i think we spent a great day
^^ right...first of all we went and get our phone =p i changed my mind not takin up k800i but D900 hehe...coz yea.. i still like slide phonezzz.. b4 this when we decided to walk out from our flat...gosh the wind was blewin like mad man! then we hesitated for some moments thinkin will we be blown up if we go now?! haha... but yea..we still keep to our plan!

after gettin phone it's edi 6 sth.. actually we planned to go broadmead tesco at 6, but since we were edi late..so we decided to go o BAPTIST church in broamead ourselves... in the bus we kept askin ppl how to go to the church but none of them knows it..aiks.. then we met this sri lanka woman who was so passionate n so kind untill she stopped the bus n TRYIN to direct us... but she herself dunno the way.. BUT suddenly there is one cina boy...asked us whether we are goin to the church or not then we said yes hopin him to tell us that he knew the way.. but unfortunately he was searchin as well... but he knew the direction that the woman was heading is totally wrong.. Then the woman help us to ask the police hopin the police will direct us the way.. then yes finally we got some clearer direction and the cina boy also found the church finally...
tell u.. we gals were extremely suffered from hunger... even in the bus itself we felt hungry edi somemore the silly bus makin us so uncomfortable untill all of us wanna thrown up!! so we really hope we can have some good food in the chruch..( the chruch invites all the chinese to have meal over there) but we noe we are not goin to have it coz we are super late comers!! aiks....
after everythin, all the singing n show in the chruch we really wanted to get home edi but we really refuse to take the bus again!!! luckily got a good uncle fethcin us back to our uni phew~~ and yea this is the first time we get into a private car ooo =p the uncle is so nice that he even invites us to go for pot luck this sat! hem......gals... we are goin for ben not uncle jason rite?! hahaha

after the whole day.. i only got chance to wish KI HAPPY BUFDAY back to our own flat!! plan to give ki a surprise as we did to foon as well but foon said like that also kenot if not i m killin ki...aw~~` i dun wan to kill ki so...ya nothin happened for ki's bufday.. our wishin ends her bufday!!! hopefully next year there is a chance then really need to celebrate ya ki!!!!

sien...

2006-10-02T03:13:00.000+01:00

It's already 3 in the morning.. i should b sleepin but again i was tossing in my bed n couldn't find my slumber....arr... this time i couldn't blame the fellow out there coz the whole hall was tranquil and serene at this moment...

hope to sleep well soon =)

P@rtY ^^

2006-10-01T04:16:00.000+01:00

hey foon as we promise right... we will have a party for u =p
But......aiksss the God isn't blessin us!! it's a rainy day...aw...
really wanna say sorry to Chris,marcus n guys... waiting outside for so long...so sorry....

Anywayz...we made our way to escape after all! we juz took some drink and have fun =p actually we brought along our cake as well but later on we find that if we are goin to eat it there we will be extremely weird!!!! so we keep it for tomolo nite!

but this wasn't really a party nitez as we went to the bar pretty late... moreover it's a rainy day not much ppl hangin out there...anyway our purpose is to celebrate with Foon mar!! hehe... Ki has a good suggestion next time if we really wanna go... need to be earlier =p yesh!!!!! haha
PL@y hard!!!!! but need to Study harder =p
ya guys........Fighting!!!!!!!!!!
beauty 1 : ki
beauty 2 : khim
beauty 3 : Foon =p de bufday gal!!

Ki u look absolutely glamor tonitez =p

Muackzzzzzzz!

SurrrpRise =p

2006-09-30T01:44:00.000+01:00

Today is Foon's bufday... Doris suggested that we gave her a surprise (i.e. give her a surprise greetin) the problem is that we dun have a cake n candles...poor Doris rushed to escape bar in order to get some candles back...unfortunately she din manage to get any...aih...(it's very cool outside) thx a lot Doris...u are always so passionate!

But...ppl like us is always very creative n smart... v tot of a brilliant way i.e. to use two lighter as candles... and muffin as cake hahaha...brilliant! aren't we?! haha... then we juz knock at foon's door n her flatmate open the door for us...so sorry Everest..got u awaken!! haha...

HePpy Bufd@y Foonnnnnn!!!!!!!!!
dun worried gal today is juz a warm up.... great party on our GreAt Saturday nitezzzzz...yahhahaha... muackz.....

Huh?!!! surprise?!
Foon posted in astonishment!!

aww... it's blurred..

Foon n the CanDle Menz!!
thx a lot =p

INsOmNi@~

2006-09-28T02:39:00.000+01:00

actually i should sleep earlier tonite as tomolo i am having my EU class, but i juz couldn't find my slumber! counting sheeps doesn't work for me as well...it will juz make me more awake..aiks!!

the most annoying thing is that the moment i felt like sleepin, some stupid fellow outside juz couldn't appreciate that this is the time where ppl are trying to get some rest n a peace of mind, kept making silly noice..f....!!!!! wat a nuisance!!!! got me awaken! yucks!

hem.... wat to do?! i dun feel like doing anything as i m so tiring now...but i couldn't get a tight sleep...juz couldn't think of anything now... start hallucinating....

(suddenly) aww... i miss my 蛋挞... erm.......

2006-09-27T22:18:00.000+01:00

Ki said that i m not writing my blog consistently! huh?! not bcoz i am lazy...
okie...everntho class started but i am still like havin my own sweet time, probably we dun have to attend for seminars yet tat's y i m damn free now!

erm!!! tonite... i cooked my frenz kicap chicken =p
everyone said it is nice yeayeayea... thx gals =) n ki cooked the vege!! nice as well... we are progressing now hahaha.. keep up the good work gals.. probably later days we may b able to open a restaurant yahaha =p

so foon... do u wan us to make a cake for ur bufday or buy u one out there? =p

school startin =p

2006-09-27T01:25:00.000+01:00

cool!!!! classes started edi!!!
the first class to attend is COMPANY!
frankly the lecture wasn't really good coz it's pretty boring.... the lecturer juz read her own handout..aiks... anywayz.. i got a strong desire to borrow out some books from lib to find out wat is company all about!
unfortunately... when me , ki n foon went there there wasn't much books left! that's bcoz some ppl juz couldn't get rid of the 'kiasu' syndrome! aih.... pity us!
and pity them as well! one day they will sure b suffocated by their own kiasuness! anywayz.... it's juz the beginnin of the class let's take it easy first =p

okie tonite we got spaghetti for our dinner.... i need to thanks foon eventho she wasn't contributing tonite but she edi cooked a lot for us in the past few days! thx a lot! Ki as well... thx for ur contribution.. think of more recipe ya! n lastly of coz our janice hahaha dun named urself as washin machine.. u cook well too for ex, we got nice spaghetti tonite =p at least it wasn't overcooked untill it's watery like someone else ahahaha!!!

i need to make this acknowledgement becoz i was NOT asked to!! =)
yeah free for wed!!!

=(

2006-09-23T23:30:00.000+01:00

after a week... started to get sick! got a bad sore-throat yesterday nite... so even planned to go to woolworths but at the end cancelled coz two of my dear frens were lazy as well haha.....

i tried my very best to get myself recover as soon as possible... so i drank a lot of water n had a lot of vitamins =p hopefully i will be alrite tomolo..i can't fall asick for my classes next week!!!

khim will get well very soon =p
wish Ki get well soon as well!!!!!!

DINNER*

2006-09-19T23:26:00.000+01:00

erm.... start cookin lu...really sick of those microwaveble food, thus me ki, n foon decided to buy some some groceries and start plannin to cook since we are so free these days, classes not started yet!

we went to sainsbury which is JUZ 15 mins walking distance from our hall. Honestly it isn't really far, but the weather is really cold especially the wind, gosh!

we happily threw everything and anything inside our trolley, only then we found that we couldn't carry that much! so we decided to put all the unnecessaries back to place...but yet we have bought a lot of things... we got around 6 - 7 packets of bags... OMG! how r we goin to carry all these bags...

that's y when i was back to my own room i felt tired AGAIN...wanna sleep for a while but it wasn't early so we got to start cookin. We first boild the soup- ABC soup! then we fried vegetable ... we dun have rice for today coz we forgot to buy the rice =( but even w/o rice all of us was very full.. after cookin and everything my friend janice did all the washin as she said she din involve in the cookin so she will wash it... oh.. so nice coz i really hate the washing up part hehe...thx janice!

Trip to Bath

2006-09-18T01:17:00.000+01:00

wei ming is not goin to bath ya...bath is a place near Bristol!
anyway... this trip to bath is definately not makin my day coz i was not feelin well...i din really enjoy it...especially in the museum...n i would like to say sorry to my dear Ki n Foon that if i would have spoilt their mood as well....but fortunately after some time i recovered.. at least i manage to take some video n pic after comin out from the museum...at least..if not i would have wasted my 10 pound!
anyway,i think we din really see the beauty of Bath yet as we juz loitering around in the city n not goin out of the city n discovered some of the beauty landscape! hem... wat a waste coz del told me that bath is actually a very beautiful place.. she even used romantic to decribe this place but honestly i din feel any of it after comin back from bath so i think i shall pay another visit to bath! tryin to discover as many as possible =p
after comin bath from bath all of us were so exhausted! but we din straight away went to my lovely bed.. me n foon went to Ki's room n watch 'beautiful kitchen' haha...so funny! after watchin this i told myself i need to be really careful in my cookin if not i will burn my flat's kitchen i dun wan to be popular in my flat!
after watchin... i went back to my own room but i still can't find my slumber =( probably its too tired or wat i dunno i juz can't sleep..sad! so i juz watch another series drama till 2.30 then only when to bed!

2006-09-15T20:21:00.000+01:00

after 12 hour flight and waited for 4 hour transit in Amsterdam..finally i reached UK at 10.15a.m
At first i thought i will be suffering for the 12 hours flight but its not at all =P as i slept so tightly on the plane that i even missed my breakfast!when the time i woke up and wanted to ask for my breakfast, my friend Ki told me that we are going to arrive soon... that time i was so shock... "what? we are goin to land soon? unbeliveable!!!! time juz flies and i din realize it! cool! and haha later i told KI that i found sabah is much more farer compare to UK as the time when we were goin to sabah i kept thinkin y the plane hasn't land yet? y so slow? y so far... n of coz i got scold by KI as she said definately 12 hours is much more longer sabah can't even compete(as from kl to sabah its juz 2.5 hours!!) but......

okie waiting for transit is the most boring part... coz we need to wait for 4 hours and we have nothing to do in Amsterdam! n i was so hungry as i missed my breakfast! OMG!!! Luckily we were served bread later in the Cityhopper(transit plane from A to Bristol)...

finally......we Reached Bristol Airport! The most suffering part of the whole day came!!! Although we were picked up by the uni staff , we were dropped somewhere NOT NEAR to our accomodation... OMG.. we need to drag our 30 kg luggage n hand carry n laptop..its really killing me n all my friends...coz its not a flat road it's a bit uphill... gosh... i would not like to do this again,never!

After giving our best in draggin luggages, we were all starving like hell... so we decided after unpackin eveything we go and find some food! so we bought 3 microwaveble pasta 1.79 pound each! honestly speaking the food here really sux! probably its juz microwaveble food doesn't taste well, so i couldn't made any conclusion now.though it's juz the first day in UK but i edi started to miss my mummy's cooking n soup! ermm..... so i need to learn how to cook asap =P

when we registered ourselves for our accomodation we were told that at night 8 o'clock there will be a BBQ party F.O.C... me,Ki n Foon were so excited as we noe that we can save for our dinner hehe.... but later we found out that the BBQ actually starts at 6, 8 oclock is juz simply a party so we decided to go at 6 as we were starving edi... but to our surprise... all the ppl who are attending is 'GUAI LOH' no Asian n all of them were drinkin happily and having their great time over there... all of them dress up nicely so it makes three of us looks weird! 1. we were the only Asian gal n 2. we din dress up... so we quickly made another wise decision that is leave! so we leave and our dinner end up to be milo n biscuit..Awwww...
i am actually using ki's laptop now as i dun have access to internet yet! aiks....
Ki said this is the first time i wrote so manything =P hehe...
tomolo we are goin to bath =p hopefully there are more irrevocable memory to be jot down tomorrow =D
nitez nitez....

my faculty

somewhere near my faculty

my accomodation

Foon, Ki n me =p