When life comes o this stage, I always ask myself the same question, what's my purpose? My objective of life? Yet still I don't think I have come to a satisfying answer. Main issue is probably bcoz I am not proactive enough and sometimes too ignorant.
But Life has given me so many opportunities.
Ist- year 2004, chose to do law in help
2nd- year 2006, flew to UK studying law
3rd- year 2007 tried to apply BVC fortunate enough I was accepted and more fortunate I
have got my family who supported me
4th- year 2008, tried to apply psw1 to stay back, not having too much hope yet was given leave
to stay.
When I think about it maybe life has been a bit easy for me, there still isn't any big problem which can't be overcome. seems like I am given all that I am aftering, hence I am too weak when I come to little challenge/obstacle.
First time in life I think I have tried to fight for what I want. Although it is not something great which I should be proud of myself, but I usually just sit down and think of what I want to do and will never take action.
Now that everything has settled down, I try to recall how I manage to come to this stage. Honestly, I am glad that I did not give up when I face obstacles. There is time where I really start thinking of giving up and go back, I wonder what is the will power which keeps me going eventhough it was so depressing sometimes. I never been so homesick b4 yet I kept persuade mummy to let me stay back, bcoz of this we quarrel not only once. In order to save, I moved house not only once. Due to depression, I cried not only once.
Mayb coz I am the only one left here in Bristol which makes me more sensitive and gloomy but I am gratitude at this stage I have overcome all these and manage to fulfill a little promise to myself. Thanks to those who has encouraged me not to give up, otherwise I would have given up easily. It's really not easy coming to this stage, therefore it is really important I would be able to do what I wish to.
After this, I fully understand the importance of giving a try to buy an opportunity, there is always a way if there is a will, it really depends how much you want it to be. if target is set, no matter how tough it is going to be, just focus on the goal and keep going, i believe it won't take me long to fulfill the goal set.
Khim's resolution: must seize this opportunity. Be more initiative and take action.
p/s: don't keep procrastinate and waste your time at the end of the day.
Life mayb predictable mayb unpredictable, khim is expecting what's next to her life ;p
