Today is definitely not really a good day for me, i m not workin but wastin my time in my room, was thinknin to give my mom a call since for few days.. duno why we started this issue again, going back and not.. n yes we started quarrellin again.. everytime when we touch this issue it is inevitable for us to quarrel i really dun understand is my prob or my mom still can't understand me now?! and my mom is always the only one who can affect my emotional easily, from happy to sad... prolly she is always the one who i care the most! n i m always such a failure, n i m still..

This is not bad enuf, after surfing net for awhile i saw some news regards to the earthquarke in sichuan.. then i youtubed it, i think watchin video is always better than juz to read the words.. and i am rite, after watching the clips and some reported news my emotional was affected to the maximum.. i can't hold it anymore.. i sometimes dun understand.. mother nature is the greatest thing but yet very cruel sometimes.. and all my problems when i compare it to nature disaster i really can't imagine how tiny and minute my probs are..they are no longer a prob when compare to those who are still struggling with life in sichuan..

is it life so fragile and unpredictable? while ppl in the other end of the world is living happily, spending time with their family and friends, ppl in SiChuan has encounter such a great disaster.. sometimes i really dun understand the meaning of life? But when i see all the NGO working so hard to help i seems to understand a bit bout life..and i m blaming myself being so useless.. i merely noe how to sit in front of the PC feeling bad but doing nothing.. is this much that i can do?

At nite... initially was very happy to chat wif alan.. but after a while i dunno how we started this conversation.. and yes i was asked.. is it rite to be so liberal? I dunno i really dunno what is rite and wat is wrong some point in life? is it sth wrong wif being liberal? sth may b rite in my eyes but not neccesary in other opinions.. and do i really care? i juz dun wanna be so judgmental thinkin everyone is the world is wrong and i m rite.. who am i on the earth to say this thing? i think i still believe in my own theory.. so long we are not doing anythin hurting other ppl, we are not doing sth wrong eventho it might not be rite.. isn't it so? things juz gonna being complicated when we grown up.. but i tot it suppose to be very simple? isn't it? and it is really we who make the whole thing go complicated.. aiks.. i really dun care about this in this point of time coz i see bigger prob.. fragility of human life.. wat i noe is juz appreciate what i have now.. tat's it! n it is really tat's it!