it has been a week since i am back to UK... everything seems to b settled down..
i can still rmb last year i spent about one or two months to really settle all my stuff.. but now i juz need one or two weeks to settle down.. ya janice is rite.. this year we dun really need spend anytime on adapting this enviroment, this place is already on our finger tips.

but... UK.. this place.. is so familiar to me yet so strange to me... sometimes i seem to be so familiar with it but sometimes i just don feel that i belongs here..

From the first day since bvc commenced i started worried bout my ability, i doubt i can handle the course. i'm overwhelmed by anxiety From the first day.. i just so regret that i chose to come here and study for bvc.. things juz not goin on ritely.. there is a strong feelin of insecure! i was so depressed by the insecurity worried bout my course my finance n so on.. perhaps if i choose to stay in m'sia i dun have to go tru all these anxiety.

but yea... decision has already been made, other than be strong n strive tru all these miserable thing really can't think of any other good way out. sometimes life is juz like tat, it leads us along, kinda unpredictable and perhaps we will only learn when we were put in some desperate situation.

i m tryin hard to b positive... juz finger cross after this i will b a better person for myself n my family...

(lucky me stayin wif janice n hong.. if not it will b more depressive)