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Sunday, September 13, 2009
The way that you make me feel

When I was young all I felt about you was a star who danced well but with some weird pose, a star who liked to shake his hand and kept shouting 'hoo hoo or yehh hey' while singing. Mayb you are more unique to me from your appearance, from a black to a white. Even b4 I was brought to this world you were already a famous King of pop but when I was 10, your music was still a hit. I do likw your music but not to the extent of a crazy fan, just a feeling that your music is nice and you seem to be unique but not much of admiration.

When I start growing up, the rumous about you and ppl around you never ends though you seem not to be actively involved in your singing career. Your name always appears on the magazines/tabloid alleging you sexually abuse the children, accusing you a paedophile, a person who doesn't respect his own race as he bleached himself white, undergone surgery etc etc. Due to the mass report, I started to be skeptical and leading me to believe that you are weird and bizzard.

2009, you come back to the stage, a place where you belongs to. But I haven't got too much of interest, expensive ticket that I could not afford first of all, Not too much of admiration second of all.

Then the astonishing news of your death just right b4 your concert has shocked the whole world I believe. When I was told about your death I felt bad but not to the extent which would make me feel miserable and think it was a big lost. All I feel was MJ fans must be heartbreaking.

Mayb this is Me or this is human, will only start appreciating after we have lost sth. I started to read some of your news, started to watch some of your concert clips and interviews. The more I learn about you the more I regret not to know you more b4 you have gone. It's not only admire your talent as a musician but also highly respect you being a kind hearted, sincere and polite person. As pointed by my friend how could the press keep attacking a nice person like you.

It's a total and complete shame for us to lose you, but looking at how ppl sometimes may hurt you, mayb it is good for you to R.I.P now and I believe you must be having more laughter now in heaven.

How could I justify and being firm to say that MJ was a nice and kind-hearted person? And how would I know if he has or hasn't sexually abuse the child or any other accusation alleged to him was not true? To be honest I don't know what will be the Real Truth, but it is just the way he makes me feel. An innocent and sincere heart is what he had, as a star, a super super King of pop, he still manage to be humble and polite to ppl around him, the way he speaks was never rude but sincere, he was never reluctant to love especially to his fans, the way he kept saying I Love you to his fans really touched me to the bottom of my heart, playing with the children innocently as if he was also a little kid. I just don't understand why is so wrong about it?

As he himself correctly pointed out, having grown up in front of 100,000 millions of ppl at the age of 5, his life is destined to be different. And yes he is always a contentious yet talented Star- the King of POP. May he will R.I.P




Kh!m thought hard on 7:52 PM.
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Friday, July 24, 2009

人与人之间总有一种奇特的缘份。

一些人只与你擦肩而过,不留痕迹。
一些人匆匆地在你身旁略过,留下模糊的印像。
一些人是你人生的顿点, 可能只是过客, 可能会是启蒙你的人。
一些人突然闯进你的人生,改变你的步伐,改变你的作息,你也同样的互相迁就,突然有一天他离开了,在你的心上刺了一刀,同时也留下彼此的回忆。
有些人惺惺相系,维持一段珍贵的友谊
有些人相逢恨晚,如果早点相遇可能结局又会不一样。
有些人一见钟情,再见倾情。
有些则是细水长流,携手看夕阳。
一些则对你循循善诱,用心培养与教导,不求回报,最高无尚。

一个人的一生亲情,友情与爱情都会在不同的时间留下不同的痕迹。
珍惜身边的人不是只用言语,而要身体力行。
但是勉强当然没有幸福,一切平常心。
缘份来了挡也挡不了,要走时留也留不住。
随遇而安,顺其自然
最后你会知道你真正要的可能不是你握紧拳头要的。



Kh!m thought hard on 7:36 PM.
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Thursday, June 04, 2009
my travelogue- porto&lisbon

Told myself to write a travelogue each time when I'm back from holidays, but I never did.
Tried to keep maps, metro lines, travel info to help with my travelogue but seems like I never refer back to them then end of chucking them into the bin.

Anyways, time to recall what I have done in Portugal, obviously I can't rmb the name of the monument, statute, street/ building.

First impression of Porto- the most original place that I have ever visited, not commercialised nor crowded with tourist. The ppl there weren't too friendly nor too hostile but possibly they're not used to tourist or Chinese tourist? the way the look at us seems a bit strange. Alan told me Porto is quite hilly and he is right, well not quite I would say Very hilly, we kept walking uphills and downhills the whole days and usual me, I started get grumpy with all the walkings especially the uphill ones!! urrgh...

Portugal reminds me of Melaca especially when I looked on the stone road in Porto, we have exactly the same stone road in melaca, and some of the old buildings are like those I used to see in Melaca jonker street, the building were quite squeezy and with narrow balcony, some with flower pot decorations, but normally it was full with hanging clothes.

The place I love the most is the Douro River, where it separated Porto and Gaia, the night scene when I climbed up to Gaia was exhilarating! the lights were shinning bright on the other side of Porto, the Porto landscape seems to me like the Lego when I used to play when I was young.

I was wondering where does Porto get it's name, and my guess was confirmed by Alan, this city produce good Port wine, and therefore it is named after the city, I then confirmed it on wikipedia that as Porto was located at the estuary of Douro river and due to the weather, it allows cultivation of grapes =) I have tried some port wine in lincoln's inn, erm... not particularly like the taste though.

A little downside of Porto or shall I say Portugal is the food, it's just nothing much choices up to us, but fries, steak and pork chop!

Okie I have writen too much about Porto seems like I have neglected the capital of Portugal, Lisbon. Well, Lisbon isn't too bad, quite a bit of attraction to cover, however I still deeply impressed by Porto, maybe of the rich herritage in Porto which made me deeply attracted to the city. But ony thing I was feeling lucky when I was in Lisbon, We managed to get involved in the tourism festival, awww wat a nice experience!


The Belem Tower was a nice experience too, Me and Alan don't need to pay for entrance coz we have a student ID, well mine student ID was expired, luckily the guy was a bit blurred and let us through =) wat a lucky escape. The Belem tower was a symbol of Portuguese discovery age, also we took pic with the monuments of discoverer. To be honest, I was a bit lack of taking pictures due to the hectic journey but luckily Alan insisted.




Kh!m thought hard on 12:23 AM.
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Tuesday, April 21, 2009
习惯

原来我真的可以生存于习惯

第一天用新牌子的牙膏时,就觉得味道怪怪的
可能我也还蛮了解自己,想说算了反正会习惯的
(知道自己惯性很强)

果真刚刚刷牙时,发现牙膏已经快要用完了
我已经不知不觉地把牙膏用完了

第一天搬新家时就感慨要怎样生活五个月?
现在的我已近忘了当初的疑惑
习惯了。。。。。

一起相处的人也慢慢地习惯他们的陪伴
单独久了也会习惯自由与寂寞

真想知道我还有什么是习惯不能改变的?



Kh!m thought hard on 10:43 PM.
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The moment

This is what ppl called 'inspiration', there will be a lot to write, too much feeling/thought that you wanna put into words.

It was yesterday when I finished work and walking back. oops b4 this b4 this, I shall start with the morning, when I walked to work, I saw two swans were cuddling each other, it was like those decorations that we normally see in the shop, where two swans are facing each other creating a heart shape in the middle. Anyway, I can't take picz down as I was RUSHING to my work well i won't be late but i MIght be if i stand there to take some picz..

so I missed it...

another one, when I m back home, I saw a seagull( or some kinds of huge bird) pecking a McDonald paper bag, at the time the road was clear, he (mayb a she, not quite sure) held the paper bag and kept looking around as if others will take it away from him. It was SO CUTE at the moment, rite since i am not rushing anywhere, I took my hp out, trying to focus on him, suddenly a car came through, he then flew away leaving the paper bag on the side of the road.

Again I missed it.... I missed the moment again, didn't I?!!

if not who knows I might be able to participate a whatever photography competition and winning the award, I love day-dreaming, making me feel like there is hope in the world ;p isn't it nice to still be in the age that can afford to day dream once in awhile ^^



Kh!m thought hard on 7:30 PM.
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explosion in the microwave~

lolz...I think I am really always a 'GENIUS'

what happened?

well one bad point about myself is I am always rushing for sth, especially when I am cooking..
I will only drag till when I am STARVING I'll start do the cooking...
and oops! i forgot my boil eggs I told myself but I am too impatient to wait till the water boils and then followed by the eggs... arrghhh... no bother! I can microwave them I told myself!

Happily took a bowl and chuked two eggs and filled it up with water then put into the microwave, meanwhile was washing the dishes!

lolz!! ***BOMB*** (a loud noice) I got shocked but then i saw the microwave was open and the eggs EXPLORED!!!! all around. of coz the first thing i should find out is if the microwave is still usable? or has it spoilt?

TO MY RELIEF!! it was okie, only my eggs were like... erm... all around the table, floor and microwave?

next question is? do i consider myself lucky then? coz it's only the eggs explored and not the microwave if not I might have died?!!!!!!!!!!! Gosh~ i might have died! can't believe

so yea lesson to learn never microwave egss... n watelse?



Kh!m thought hard on 7:19 PM.
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Thursday, April 16, 2009
新不了情,情不了新

幸好华语没退步, 还会用回文!

听了这么多的新不了情, 总觉得曹格的最耐听。
每一句都那么扣人心旋,
勾起思绪的涟漪。

电影少了动听的主题曲,就像少了盐,吊不出味道
同样感人的歌曲少了故事的主轴,就没了灵魂
好像缺一不可。

记得小时候看这部戏的时候,不是很明白故事大纲,
依稀只记得结局时自己哭了。
长大后也只记得那个令我哭泣的画面
再看的时候,除了结局,更多印象深刻的画面烙印着记忆
原来小时候看不到人生的无奈
长大后竟然不想面对人生的无奈

最常问自己我的人生到底在追求什么?
好像还没能好好的对自己交待
只是一直挥霍青春与时间
真的试过抗拒长大,又如何
人生最无奈不过时间不留人,与其浪费时间发梦发呆
我不如定下心寻找我一直寻觅的答案




Kh!m thought hard on 12:47 AM.
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Thursday, February 05, 2009
p.s. the snow

It has been snowy days, after three winter, at least i see some proper snowing here. Aww~ how can i not be excited, even the local were all merry with the snow they have got here. I was told, in Bristol they haven't got such thick snow since they were 6, they used to get sliding from the small slope/hill. ha! it reminds me when i were still a kid, mummy and uncles brought me and bro with other cousin bro to play around in the waterfall, picnic, swimming, feeding monkey and it was sth so long long ago which actually doesn't pop up in my mind.

Anyway get back to my snow, i was so happily walking to work this morning, even i need to bloody wake up 7a.m in the morning and it was so cool so cool. But when i see it thru my window, it was so beautiful outside, it was still snowing, not heavily but just nice, all the roof and the cars were covered by white pristine snow. when i stepped out of my door, i can feel i stepped on the snow! it's about 2.5 inches. arrrhhh, it like stepping on those snowy ice in the freezer, well the snow is much more softer. how beautiful and romantic the whole scenery is, it's like a little me put into those decoration snow ball we normally see in the sourvenir shops. I am not too early to walk to work, but i just can't help taking picture, too beautiful~ i still rmb when i was about 13-14 my favourite season is winter time, coz m'sia we haven't got white snowy winter, and i had forgotten that i have used to love winter after i came to UK, coz i hate the chill.

you won't know how romantic the whole thing is when i put on my earphone listening to 方大同's love song.. arrghhh! it's just beautiful! it makes the journey walking to work too short (well also due to the picture taking, i am running a bit late to work, so was literally running after then, but ha! surprise surprise i m EARLY)

'Love Song 一直想寫一首Love Song 
你給了我一首 Love Song'

Today is really a happy day, not just the beautiful snow, nice song, touching voice, brilliant talent also superb movie that i have watched. PS I love you..

awwww everything for today is just beautiful, such a lovely movie. Sad movie but it makes me feel warm tho.. Nothing nothing in the world would be much more important than having those love ones with you, losing them certainly would be a disaster. For me that's the most devastating thing that would have happened. Sometimes i just don't understand why? if God really love us why He wants to pull my love ones away from me? Mayb sometimes there is just sth which i can never figure out in life.

I sometimes think how on earth could my beloved mummy manage to move on with her life when she has lost her love one? She must have had been thru the toughest of her life, such a pityful gal, makes me feel like showering her with all my love and flourish her with all I could afford. Just feeling guilty for not doing my best.

p/s: I always love you, my dearest Mummy~



Kh!m thought hard on 11:31 PM.
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Saturday, January 10, 2009
What? Kuala Clown?

well Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia is not an immaculate city (neither those big cities out there is) but how would you dare name us KUALA CLOWN!!!! Undeniable there is some black sheep who spoilt the name of this city but KL lights generally don't deserve the name " kuala clowns"

we should aware that more people are manipulating cyber world as a weapon to put on a sham, and we should not be easily deceived by those data posted on the internet as truly pointed by Mr Graham those information could be creative. However, this is not merely happened in Kuala Lumpur, if you were to read on Metro (the sister company of 7 days) in the beginning of January 2009 (can't rmb the date) it was reported that there was a sham set up to deceive ppl in giving their credit or debit card details thru email to reclaim tax. It was said that this was the most sophisticated sham the swindler has set up to trap innocent people as the emails that they sent over was under the official inland revenue emails and also when clicking on the hyperlink in the email it will bring you to an 'official' website which all details information which induce people in believing it to be something true and real, and the true is a lot of people did fall for it.

And i believe there are a lot more sham or deceiving web site all around the world especially those big cities out there, if we are KL clown what are they?



Kh!m thought hard on 12:56 PM.
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